The Diary Of A Teenage Girl [COMPLETED]

26/05

The sun was shinning as I walked through town with Leiya and Reina beside me. The weather had really started picking up so we had decided to go for ice cream.

"I can't believe he did that." Reina said, looking over at Leiya in shock. They'd been bitching about Hisashi and his recent "conquest" from the last party. Leiya was mad but I wasn't really interested, as far as I was concerned he could do what the fuck he wanted.

He'd continued trying to get with me after our argument but I wasn't really giving him the time of day so then he'd gone on a snogging spree. But I didn't care because I was done with him anyway. I knew it was what he would do. He didn't really want to be with him, everyone just wants what they can't have.

Ever since things had ended I had felt my anxiety levels shrink right down and I felt relax and happy for the first time in ages.

"What flavour are you guys getting?" I asked as we neared the shop.

"Um, I don't know, depends what they have but I'm kind of feeling chocolate," Leiya said. "Are you sure you're okay with everything that's going on, though?"

I smiled at her. "Yeah, I'm fine, I told you I didn't want to be with him anyway. I think I'm going to get cookie dough, bloody hope they have it, it's my fave."

Obviously, everything that had happened hurt and it made me feel stupid. I would need time to get over it completely but talking wasn't going to fix it. Only time. I decided I was going to focus on work instead of boys for now. I was content in being alone, greatful even. People made such a fuss about being single but boys had only ever caused me drama.

I thought about where my life had been this time the year before and all my dreams of romance and kissing, so worried about the fact that I had always been single. All the hopes I had had. It definitely hadn't been all I would've thought it would be. I also thought about the fact that I had lost one of my closest friends due to a boy. If only we just hadn't given a shit.

Giving a shit about boys didn't feel worth it anymore. I hadn't gained anything from it in the past few months other than stress. My body was finally starting to feel lighter again. I was done with it all.

Maybe someone in the future would come along and change my mind again or maybe they wouldn't. I didn't mind either way.

I looked back over at my two best friends, watching them chat away, thinking about how easy everything was now. I had everything I needed.

Why would I want anything else?