-𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐮𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐞 i.

dreißig

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nothing could have prepared me
for these feelings of deja vu.

it's happened too many times
over and over again
but the cd skips these parts

the feelings.
my head is starting to hurt.
my stomach feels empty.

i'm going to vomit.
i need to go.

you're blurring my vision,
i can't see you anymore.
your beautiful heart
can't make mine beat
while you're away.

so much love is sent your way.
i'm going to miss the tiny
bits i receive every thursday.
so much love for you, from me
wrapped in paper, tied with twine.

i never thought that i'd be in this moment,
the ones you created.

remember our first morning?
the sunrise, like baked bread.
the birds flying towards their dreams.
don't you remember how cold i was?
the second night you left me?
what about how i dropped everything
just to love you?

darling, don't close your eyes now.
it's too late for that.
these tears cannot be stopped,
they must march on, as time does too.
let them go, love.
there's no point.

the end is inevitable,
and it doesn't contain you and me.
we have to go our separate ways,
no matter how much force
pulls us together.

i love you, darling.
i always have,
though i never
said it to your face.

come home soon.
yours truly,
k.c
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