IT'S ALWAYS YOU

CHAPTER 1

Lisa

-

Lisa ?
Don't you ever court a girl .
Because your mine .
I dont want my bestfriend having a relationship with someone .
Don't broke my heart .
                 -Jennie

After i read her letter that i kept for 5years .

I put it down.

I lay on my bed .
Wear my headphone ..
Closing my eyes .
Listen to the music .
And feel the rythym of my favorite song
"homesick" by dua lipa .

"you give me a reason
Something to believe in .
I know.  I know . I know

You give me a meaning
Something i can breath in
I know . I know. I know

Its a bittersweet feeling
Longing and im leaving
I go i go i go

But i wish
I was there with you"

-
My always routin .
To pretent that i have my own word .

This pain is kills me everytime i remember her face .
-
I always remebering my girl .
My bestfriend for 8 years .

Being secret inlove with my bestfriend is really difficult happen in my life .
How am i supposed to be living with this pain ?

-

Holding my chest .
Breath so deep.
Hold my tears .
I dont want to cry.
No i dont want to cry ..

I don't even recieving a message from her .
I can't even hear her sweetly voice.

I miss her .
I miss her voice.
I miss her smile .
I miss her face .
I miss her gummy smile.  Her giggle.
I miss everything about her .

And do you know who am i talking about ?

Its jennie .
Her name is jennie .

My first love .

She's beautiful .
Beautiful face.
Beautiful smile.
Beautiful eyes . Nose . Lips .
All .
Perfect .
And im talking about a perfect woman in my life .

She's always there for me .
When i need her .

She's always there in my side .
From my happiness to sadness.
From pain . Darkness .
Madness . Lonelyness .
Everything .

She's always coming for just one call .
She's always be there just to make me happy ..
Her hug .
Her smile.
Is my medicine .

I forgot of being broken family .
Because she always makes me feel complete .

And everytime she's with me.
I always fall inlove again and again and again with her .

But now ?

She's not here to wipe my tears
That she made .
She's not here to comfort me from my pain that she made .
She don't have an idea that i love her more than friend.

She always remind me that i am the best of
Bestfriend in the whole world

She always say i love you .
Because i am her best friend.
And i always say i love you too .
Because she's my bestfriend .

But the truth is .
I love her more than friend .

And that is the thing that i can't say untill now
Because i am her best friend .

I can't say i love you in a special way .
I can't say i love you .
I can't say it .

Bcos your my best friend .
And i am your Best friend.

I want to say i need you now .
But i know your not coming .
Because your with your special someone.

Your with him .

Your with your
Boyfriend.

-

While listening.
I heard someone knock on my door .

And i know its rose .

I romoved my headphone and stood up.

I walk headed to the door and open it .

She gave me a very nice smile ..

This girl is never fail me with her beautiful face and smile.

Are you busy again with your headphone ?

She ask.

No .
Im just lying and relaxing .

I smile.

Okay then .
Lets go downstair .
I want you to meet my girlfrind .
-she smile.

She grab my hand headed to the downstair .

I saw some familliar lady .

Lisaya ?
This is jisoo .
My girlfriend
-she sweetly smile.

I know her .
Jennie's sister .
-i said.

Realy ? 
-Rose furrowd her eyebrow .

Yes.
Actually .
This is the 2nd time that we met .
We met last 3months .
-jisoo said.

Jisoo is always in u.s .
I just wonder if she's going to stay here for good .

I see rose sweet smile .
Its realy different .
It means .

She's realy inlove .

Im happy for you rose.
-i smile.

Thank you lisa .
-she smile.

How's jennie ?
-i look at jisoo .

She's fine .
She's engage now with her boyfriend kai.
-jisoo said.

I feel shock .
But i need to pretent .

Realy ? Well im happy for her .
-i fakely smile.

I- still need more rest rose .
Please excuse me .
-i formaly said and smile

I walk headed to my room .
I close the door and headed to my bed
And push myself . .

After i hear that she's engage.
I cant help it now but cry .

Its been one year since she left .
The last time she message me just to say
She already have a boyfriend.
And after that.

I don't even recieving a message from her .
And now .
Knowing that she's engage .

I feel broke 3x .
Pain is never leave me .
Its living here in my heart .
For 8 years .
And now .
Want to stay for good .

Can i die now ?
Can i stop breathing ??
Can i stop my life today ?

I can't even hear anything ..
And
All i can feel is my tears falling from my eyes .

All i can hear is my heart .
Saying that it's hurt .

But its you jennie .
Its always you .

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