Alice and Connor

Part 5!

                                                                                    -Connor-

I couldn't believe Alice just let her do that, I wanted to beat that bitches ass, but I couldn't and didn't want to do that because she's a girl that and she would throw my ass to jail. I sat down and watched T.V. I was tired from last night, Alice wouldn't talk or look at me, which I didn't blame her at all, I still didn't even tell her what I did wrong to her... It wouldn't matter anyways..

The day went by slow, I did nothing but watch T.V. Alice stayed in her room all day and so did Helena. I finally decided to get up and check on Alice, I knocked on the door she didn't answer. I slowly put my hand on the doorknob and softly turned it... I peeked in her room I couldn't see her, or even hear her... I went in, I had to find her, I looked everywhere in there and she wasn't anywhere to be found, I then ran around the house looking and outside, Helena wasn't nowhere to be found either.. I'm terrified at this moment... I sat down in the kitchen thinking of anywhere they could have gone.. I tried calling and texting both of them and nothing..Where were they? How the hell did they just walk past me? And I not notice?

-Phone rings-

Connor- "Hello."

James- "Where are you?"

Connor- "I'm home, why?"

James- "Look on the News right now!!"

I turned the News on.. My stomach dropped... The lady started talking..

"Yes, we are here now at the horrific accident that just happened about a half an hour ago with two young girls Alice Greens and Helena jay, they have been hit by a semi, they are also in critical condition." I turned it off...

James- "I'll be over to get you.."

I hung up... And waited.. I couldn't speak... I couldn't cry.. I couldn't do anything...I felt so sick... I couldn't move.. I didn't even wanna move... What did I just hear? My whole body hurts... James came running in.

 "Come on we gotta go.." I didn't move how could I? I was in such shock.. "Connor come on?" The car ride felt so long, James and I didn't say one word to each other... We arrived to the hospital, he parked the car and we ran to the room they were in. I stopped right in the doorway, The thought of going in there and looking at them both was something I couldn't even handle. James was already in there with them both, "Connor, come on.." he yelled.

I slowly made my way through the door... Helena was a wake... "How are you awake?" James asked..

"I don't know..I just now woke up ten minutes before you guys came in.. Alice is in worse condition than I am in. I only broke my arm, and my leg, few rubs, I'm confused as why the news lady said both of us were in critical because I'm pretty much fine." she sighed in pain.. "Also, it hit her side of the car..."

I took a deep breath "I can tell.." I sat down next to Alice and held her hand.... I squeezed it so tight, I didn't ever wanna let go... The only thing I wanted was for her to squeeze my hand back.. I started to cry... I couldn't see her like this, I wish she wasn't going through any of this... I wish she would just wake up, I don't want anything to happen to her... My world would just fall apart...

"Alice.. I don't know if you can hear me but there's a few things I need to tell you.. The things I wanted to tell you last night..." I sighed... Here goes nothing... "Alice... I don't know how to even say this... Gosh I just wish you was awake... It'd be so much easier.. but if you don't make it and I never told you it would be shitty.. I wouldn't know how to live with myself.. But I can't even live with myself now..." I started shaking... Helena and James were listening to me... "Alice.. I-I I'm the one that got you pregnant Andy didn't or I guess couldn't have because you and I have done it multiple times more than you and Andy, it just matched up with us... Andy just took the blame and I'm so sorry.... It's just you didn't even notice who was who and I took advantage of that..  Andy did beat you that wasn't me he also did rape you but you don't remember that before he did that we did it... Fuck... This is what I wanted to tell you last night... I hurt you and I don't wanna live with myself, I did more to you than you could ever imagine and I'm so sorry..." James stood up and stared at me with anger in his eyes.