short stories

paralysed

paralysed

And no- no- that fucking car coming right in my- and wow wait- mum I love you- nonono i don't wanna die- shit shit shit- okay- it hurts- I'm gonna die- breathe- I can't- I'm dying- why did I always drank so much- mum I'm sorry- Daisy I'm sorry- everything hurts- I think I'm bleeding from everywhere- oh no everything turns black- I can't call an ambulance- okay I'm falling unconscious-
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Am I awake- am I dead- I'll have to open my eyes- ow everything is just so bright- a doctor? Yeah- a hospital- yeah- holy shit my body is covered in bandages- ow my body hurts from everywhere- doctor is speaking- I don't understand- I'm trying to move my head- no that's not possible- OW- that hurts like hell- how am I supposed to live- in this condition- will I ever be completely healed- am I going to join dad soon- I can't move- maybe I'll just not move for the rest of my life- I don't even dare to move- wowowow I'm just gonna sleep again- okay let's think about... yeah sleep- I think I'm falling asleep- no I'm not actually- because I'm thinking that I'm falling asleep- I can't fall asleep- oh my god I think I'm gonna die- I will not be able to work- I mean this ruined me- the car accident- help how am I gonna do with money- this is my death- without dying- somebody take care of me please- maybe I'll be in a coma for the rest of my life- and maybe- I wanted to sleep- so okay- I'm gonna sleep- now- that doesn't work- it never has- I know that since I'm a child so- I can't hear- and I can't feel because it hurts so much- can I taste- yeah I have a bad taste in my mouth- blood and morning breath- my face has to look horrible- will I be able to pee- and have sex- or will that change- I can see- well I think- oh the doctor wants to talk to me- let's try to speak- omg my voice is gone- sounds like a motorcycle- I guess I'll have to learn to live like this- sight- oh now I'm sleeping- I guess

I tried to write like you're thinking and it was really hard. Try it. Because when you do something you're not thinking "alright right now I am eating. Then I stand up and go to the bathroom". People often lose the track of thoughts and wander from one thing to another or drift away from what they are doing. It was fun though.