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TRIGGER WARNING IF SUCIDE TRIGGERS U I SUGGEST U LEAVE. IF U ARE HAVING THOUGHTS DONT DO IT PLEASE. PPL LOVE U EVEN IF U DONT THINK ANYONE DOES THERE WILL ALWAYS BE SOMEONE WHO DOES. DONT DO IT PLEASE IF U NEED HELP CONTACT ONE OF THE SUICIDE LINES FOR UR COUNTRY/STATE. U CAN ALSO DM ME AND ILL TALK WITH U(I'm not always on this app so if u wanna talk more ask for my insta or Snapchat) OR ASK FOR A COUNCILLOR IF U DINT WANNA ASK UR PARENTS FOR A COUNCILLOR MOST SCHOOLS HAVE A SCHOOL COUNCILLOR U HAVE SO MUCH TO LIVE FOR IK HOW IT FEELS TO HAVE THESE THOUGHTS AND HOW IT FEELS TO LOSE SOMEONE TO THESE CIRCUMSTANCES IT UPSET ME ALOT AND I HAVENT BEEN THE SAME SINCE SO THINK OF WHO U MIGHT EFFECT BEFORE DOIN IT. Thank u

2 years later
Finns POV

Today's the day. Today's the day I do it. I just can't handle it anymore. I need to escape. I miss them To much.
That kept repeating in my head as i looked over the edge of the quarry.
If I'm gonna gonna go I'm gonna go where I love the most.
I thought. I looked down at my hands and my eyes traveled up to my arms. Seeing all the cuts on them. Some of the cuts hurt others didn't. This is the second time I've tried in 6 months.

*flashback*
Still Finns pov

I look down. It isn't that far but I can't touch when I'm gonna be hinging over it.

I tied a noose and put my head in it. It was working but then my brother came in and got me down

"MIKE LET ME DO IT. I DONT WANNA BE HERE. I MISS THEN TO MUCH. PUT ME DOWN PLEASE JUST LET ME DO THIS. Pleas mike. Please I love them and now I have no one left. I don't belong here just let me leave. I said while bursting into tears. Mike just stood there hugging me. Soon after Nancy (older sister) joined the hug

End of flash back

I hold the cold blade in my shaking hands. I start cutting a deep vertical cut down my right wrist and then repeat for the left. The blood starts pouring out as the sun rises. It's exactly 2 years after the crash. Black spots start filling my vision.

After for what felt like hours there was a bright white light and 6 ppl working up to me I look at them and I recognise them. The losers. I start crying as they hug me

"I've missed u guys so fucking much u don't no how hard it was for me" I say.

That's when I realise it

It's not a dream

It's real life

I finally did it

I'm dead

mikes pov

I was sitting in the lounge room with the tv on. I was listing to the news as I was playing on my phone

"Local found dead by the quarry. Death from suicide" I soon as I looked up I saw it. The most horrible thing ever

Finns face on the tv

"The boy is believed to be Finn wolfhard" the tv man said and I broke

I fucking broke
Into tears
And my heart
And my whole intire life.
Just disappearing into thin air
I sat there for I don't even no how long just crying and crying

A week later at the service
Still miles pov

At least he's happier
And in a better place
And not depressed in his room
I just sit at the service crying.

The end