I'm Spider-Man

Chapter 21: Part 2

Tom's POV:
I couldn't sleep last night. After I called her back and after what she said, I can't even imagine what she's been going through. I did leave her 2 and 1/2 weeks. If she didn't call, I don't even know when or if I would've ever called. I'm an idiot. But I'm so ready to talk to her. Scared but ready. Ready to try and fix everything.
Y/N's POV:
I barely got any sleep last night. My thoughts were circling all through the night about Tom. I kept thinking about what that guy said to his wife, 'that guy looks familiar doesn't he?' And he was right because he's Tom Holland, the actor, freakin' Spider-Man. I kept tossing and turning in my sleep anxious about calling him back and laying everything out there. My stomach hurt from all the nerves thinking about what he'll say and his explanation for all of this. Kate stayed the night and stayed in Gem's room because they knew Tom would call back. I woke up and decided that it's probably better to call him now or I'll be anxious about it the rest of the day because I won't stop thinking about it. I pull up his contact and my finger hovers over the button to call him.
Y/N: "Just breathe Y/N you got this. Just call him. Just push the call button. Gosh why can't y-" I say but am cut off by my phone ringing. I looked down at my phone and see Tom was calling me. "Ugh! Why didn't you call him first Y/N?!"
A wait a few seconds because I don't want him thinking I'm just desperately waiting by the phone even though I am because I waited 2 and 1/2 freakin weeks. I have a right to be desperate. I pick up the phone.
T: "Hey Y/N! I'm really sorry about yesterday hanging up on you." Silence complete silence. I didn't really want to say anything even though I had a million questions racing through my mind. "Ok I deserve that. You not talking to me, so I know you watched it last night. I just wanted to explain mor-"
Y/N: "No I think you explained it perfectly," yep the sass is coming out for this. "I think you made it clear in your interview."
T: "Made what clear, Y/N?"
Y/N: "That THIS, US was all an act!"
T: "No, Y/N it wasn't like that," he says staying calm unlike me. "At all."
Y/N: "Then how was it Tom? Because I let you into my life! I tore down my walls for you! I even let you meet my family!"
T: "And I should've never let you do that knowing that I was going to have to leave."
Y/N: "So either way you were planning on leaving?! It didn't matter and didn't change your mind after meeting me?!" I say trying to get the words out as I cry.
T: "I'm sorry I was planning on telling y-"
Y/N: "But you didn't! And that goes to show you that THIS whole thing that happened when we met and hung out was to make you a better actor right?! To help you be more charming?! Romantic?! A better friend?! But the only thing you achieved of becoming more of is a manipulative selfish liar! And none of this was real to you! You probably just had that little speech planned for that interview so you didn't look like a horrible person!"
T: "Y/N! Y/N!" He pauses and I can here him sniffle probably from guilty tear of knowing what could've been or guilty tears of lying. "Every single relationship I made with Kate, Zach, your parents, Gem-"
Y/N: "No you don't to get to call her Gem we don't know you at all! And Zach was right I should've never let you into my life. He knew you were hiding something and I stood up for you saying you weren't."
T: "And I'm sorry for that, but let me just say every-everything I said about my family, parents, siblings and everything I felt about you was real. The only thing I lied about was my name, where I was from, that stupid accent, and my plans after school. But Y/N," he sighs, "we were real, and I know I was a complete idiot for leaving," I scoff, "but Y/N I still think back to that day, our day, our first date in NYC."
Y/N: "Yah our first and last date," I say rolling my eyes.
T: "Y/N! Just let me finish." I could now here the frustration in his voice and realized he did care, and he truly wanted to fix things. "I hold on to those memories Y/N. I kept that silly t-shirt that you bought me and that drawing of us because it reminds me of us dancing under the lights and the night sky and that kiss."
Y/N: "Well you know what after those two weeks I broke that picture Tom," I start sobbing barely getting the words out. "I tried to forget about that kiss. You took away three of my firsts! My first date! My first kiss! My first boyfriend! And then you just left me," I cry even harder and Kate came in because she could hear me crying harder and sat next to as she hugged me as I finished talking to Tom trying to calm me down so I could get the words out. "Because you left you broke me like I broke that picture."
T: "Y/N I never meant for this to happen to you," I can hear him starting to cry and sniffle. "But I want to try and let you get to see the real real me that I wasn't able to show you. If you'll let me. And I'm sorry. I let the best thing, you Y/N Y/L/N, slip away and I can't let you slip away again, not ever again."
Y/N: "Well...I'll think about it, but I can't forgive you right now. I still need to figure things out."
T: "I know," he sighs. "Just text or call me whenever or don't, you know if you never want to speak to me again. I understand," I hear the sadness in his voice and how he's disappointed in himself.
Y/N: "I'll talk to you later Tom," and with that I hung up and cried into Kate's arms because I didn't know what to do now. Do I give him another chance, to let him break down my walls and into my life or break me? And more important do I trust him and is he who he said he was when we were together?