My Only Escape|🖤Depressed and Singer Deku🖤| ON HOLD

I'll Sleep When I'm Dead

I woke up to my alarm as usual. I got out of bed and got ready for another abusive day.

As I walked down the stairs I heard sizzling, and immediately guessed mom was making bacon.

I started running down the stairs, but with me having socks on and all, I slipped and fell down instead.

I quickly got back up and grabbed a handful of bacon.

Look, even though I'm depressed, and want to die, I can still like food.

After eating bacon, I got my red shoes on and started my boring journey to school.

~*********Time Skip*********~

I walked home cause Strawberry got lazy and skipped my whole school day.

I entered my home to see a note in the fridge.

Izuku

I'm going on a business trip for a couple of days, I'll be back on Suday

Love Mom xoxo~

(Let's pretend Its Wednesday)

I sighed and went upstairs. I set up stuff for my next song cause I had nothing better to do.

I changed into my ideal performance outfit and started recording.

"Hey guys, I'm back! I hope you had a good day doing whatever you do. Anyway to the musica!"

I played the music.
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It's the same each and every night
Glare at my screen with two big bloodshot eyes

I'm stuck self-torturing
My meds are failing me
Internal clock in smithereens
Can't fix this,
I'm hopeless

My eyes are stapled open wide
As I lay down on my side
I am bouncing off these walls

Notice my hands begin to twitch
Unprovoked assaulting of my conscious wit
Me and the TV are enemies
Sickening static surrounds my mind
I'm losing time
And realizing that after days of thought that

I'm stuck self-torturing
My meds are failing me
Internal clock in smithereens
Can't fix this
I'm hopeless

My eyes are stapled open wide
As I lay down on my side
I am bouncing off these walls
As I focus on the clock
Time stands still, but I cannot
I should strap myself in bed
I guess I'll sleep when I am dead
Talk to myself,
Lie in the darkness so content
As the sun begins to rise

I can barely shut my eyes
This crazed, delirious mess
Laughing at everything I see

My sanity is spent
Just tell me where my time went
I'm losing it

Attention: All insomniacs, please raise your right hand
And kindly, repeat after me
"I GUESS I'LL SLEEP WHEN I AM DEAD!"

'Cause I'm stuck self-torturing
My meds are failing me
Internal clock in smithereens
Can't fix this
I'm hopeless

My eyes are stapled open wide
As I lay down on my side
I am bouncing off these walls
As I focus on the clock
Time stands still, but I cannot
I should strap myself in bed
I guess I'll sleep when I am dead
I guess I'll sleep when I am
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I ended the song.

"Thanks for listening! The live stream is still planned for Friday, hope to see you there! Bye!"

I ended the video, and did the editing.

Since my mom wqsnt here I didn't have to eat, so I just posted my video, and hoped to get some sleep.

I didnt want to take my pills...

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(Hiii! I know I didn't post yesterday, I'm sorry. I kinda forgot this app existed since I was watching TikTok. Anyway, if you dont know what I ment by pills it says so in the song so there's you answer. Oh and.."SERO GET OVER HERE IZUWU BROKE THE WALL")