🦋☁️Bulimia☁️🦋

PIzZa PArTy🍕🤢

My tired eyes watched how the greasy pizza dripped on the white plate. My stomach didn't like the sight. Fatty foods that makes you more fat kills me, it's sickening. My stomach was screaming at me. Begging to be fed and not thrown up after. But I can't, as much as I want to be able to be normal and just eat without having to throw it up or feel insecure or sick about my body.

I slowly put the pizza to my mouth and took a long bite. A string of cheese running down my throat slowly making me sick and want to throw up.

***

"Goodnight Tae" Jungkook whispered from his bed as I laid on the floor in his room. My body still ache to gag myself but I couldn't until Jungkook slept.

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30 minutes later I could hear Jungkook soft snores, I got up and walked into the bathroom that was connected to his room.

As soon as I closed the door making sure to lock it behind me I walked up to the dull toliet and stared at my weary reflection, a single tear dropped into the toliet making blink the rest of my tears away and snapping back to reality.

I took my two fingers and closed my eyes. Before I knew it I was gagging and throwing up the pizza I ate, I refused to open my eyes a watch it drop into the water, but I continued to gag myself until acid start coming up telling me I'm done.

I didn't realize how loud my gagging was, I thought it was quiet but I was proved wrong when I opened the door and Jungkook stood there with watery eyes.

"So that's what you do?" He mumbled looking down. "Why?" He asked sound more ashamed than ever.

"Um I'm fine" I mumbled trying to walk past him but he grabbed my arm pushing back.

"Why won't you just tell me the truth Tae?, I would never judge you I just want to help you." Jungkook said almost choking on tears.

"Jungkook I have bulimia I'm sorry I-I just didn't want to put this stress on you, you don't deserve it kook." I said hesitantly.

Jungkook wrapped me into a warm hug, I didn't realize how much I needed it, My heart beat aggressively against my chest as he held me close to his. I don't know why Jungkook always made me feel better.

"You don't have to sleep on the floor take the bed and I'll sleep on the floor" Jungkook said getting ready to walk before being stopped by me "huh?"

"Can you sleep in the bed with me tonight, I mean there's nothing to hide now because you know now."

I laid down on my side and Jungkook followed facing me. "Jungkook, promise me you won't tell anyone, please"

"But you need help hyung, why won't you just te-"

"No Jungkook, No, Absolutely not, I swear. It's not your place to tell anyone that's my choice not yours." I said raising my voice making Jungkook eyes water.

"Your right, I'm sorry it's none of my business" Jungkook said quietly, turning around now facing away from me.

"No- Jungkook, I'm sorry for snapping it was an accident"

I could hear his soft sobs.

Jungkook turned around with tears wetting his soft eyes. I placed a hand on his cheek

"p-please, just tell someone, do you know what will happen if you continue like this." Jungkook said hardly getting his words out.

"Shh, please so no one will hear please shh." I whisper looking back.

"Okay, okay but please just at least let me help you" Jungkook begged pressing our nose together.

"F-fine but can we please just go to sleep now I don't want to talk about it tonight."

He sighed and turned off his lamp. He wrapped his arm around my waist making me snuggle against him.

"Goodnight Jungkook"

"Goodnight"