So Kevin doesn't go straight home after Christmas. His sisters here and it's great. I don't mean just great I mean it's GREAT with thumbs up emojis attached. He's still got that lopsided half smile, those jeans that barely fit him but he won't throw away and the smell of salt shampoo in his hair. He leans forward as if he's a snake or a serpent or something-
And then hes like, "Are you happy?" His hands are wrapped kind of forcefully around my arm but it's not uncomfortable. It's like, I don't think I can explain it, it's like we fit.
"I think so." I say.
And then he's coming towards me again, closer then his been in months. Like the way we used to stand together when we were cold and alone all those years before. I look into his eyes and there's stars(?) there.
"I'm sorry you felt like I was asking you to cage yourself in. I truly am." He says. "You don't have to not for anyone least of all for me."
There's a silence. I think I want to scream 'I love you' until my lungs burst but I don't. We stand there for seconds and then those seconds turn to minutes finally I say,
"Can I take you to Gander?"
It's spontaneous.
It's stupid.
It's not what he wants.
But he doesn't recall.
His pale lips form a tight line and then, he becomes a piturce every angel on earth would die for, he smiles.
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xmas @ the kevin's
FanfictionCOME FROM AWAY kevin breaks up with me and then he quits and moves back home to new york and i miss him i miss his jokes. // Kevin should be home; not standing on the doorstep covered in snow, not in my house, not HERE. But he is. And, honestl...
