Excerpts from an old diary

False

I'm sorry,
What I'm gonna say,
It might compel you to hate me.
Gathering courage to confess,
Fine, if you don't ever trust me again.

I know I said it's just friends.
Never thought then that it'll turn this way.
Never had this as a plan,
Turned into more than just a friendship.

I know,
This is ain't even real,
Its all the illusions in my head.
Even if it's a mistake,
I just know I have to commit it.

How do I choose if I know,
I'm ruining just what I want?
How do I loose to either one,
When my mind is on the play, now.