My Art Book Three I guess 😳😳

not art sorry

small rant ahead skip if you want ill probably delete this

sometimes i legitimately feel so stupid

like i know im good at most my classes,, except the ones where i have to study,, bc im awful at studying

but i just,,, i find myself zoning out ALL the time and missing crucial information,,

it feels like my brain is constantly in overdrive and its running at like 5038484929384 miles per hour,,

i can feel my brain operating in like 3736382883 different llaces and i cant focus

i just feel so fkcing stupid

everyone else focuses just fine in class but i feel dumb i blurt dumb sht out for no reason i cant pay attention to whats being taught without zoning out and focusing is so fcking hard

and like i feel awful and my memory is so fcking shtty all the time

and im so fcking impulsive i dont think anything through i just /do/

and i talk so much and annoy everyone
like i legit cannot stop talking im so loud

and i hyperfixate all thebtime and annoy everybody

i just

i feel so alone and confused and lost and blurred

i feel like a second hand friend,, one you only talk to when theres no one else left

i think the best way to explain it is that,

im fragmented into a hundred different cars and theyre going too fast to see out the window