The Turning Point

Admitting It .

I gave him chances & chances .
" Why are you riding around with their faces dirty and nose snotty " I Argued .
" Their just kids ." My inconsiderate, no good , irresponsible baby daddy said .
I couldn't do anything but shake my head and go get my kids a rag out the closet , so I could clean their faces. As I wiped each face , I'm just disgusted . Like I know 100% this man is the father of my youngest child but am I really letting this sorry excuse of a man be the father my 2 boys look up to ? Hell NO ! He is NOT father material ! This is a mistake ! It's like I have 3 sons I gotta get out of this ! Then I snap out of it . cause ' then he says something to me to throw me off . Either something funny or something sweet . Ahaaa' he don't mean that shit he's just stating , he's the master at manipulating !! Years of insecurity and disrespect I can't believe it's been 5 years !!
It's Like ....
after 5 years , it must be disrespect .
I been telling you how I feel & nigga Yeen deaf . You heard every word I said . You let it come through one ear and out the other side of your head . I'm walking round the house smiling but really depressed. Trying to think real positive , trying not to stress . Yeen care if I was my best . Yeen care about my health , all you cared about was your got damn self . You was a horrible father , you never held them tight in . You only fed them when you felt like it . I gotta come home from work with hungry kids at my ankles , I'm asking you have you fed em ' now your face got wrankles . You talking bout " you trying me " but deep down , you knew I knew . I know the real you ! I don't care what you say . The kitchen ain't clean , now I'm acting mean like ... " can I come home to a clean house bae ?" The kids starving , they ain't ate . You ain't been doing shit but playing 2K all day 🙄🙄
I swear ima get outta this relationship one day
It's like I adopted a bae
He my nigga at night
But my child during the day ...