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Untitled Part 6

XXXtentacion:

Jahseh, I just wanna thank you for everything you've done, for helping me through your beautiful music and you just being you, you bring me so much comfort, the past haunts me but you make everything easier, I wish I could tell you everything right now but I want to talk to you about it all when I meet you, I love you, YOU are not alone either, I feel so alone at times, I just wish I could talk to you but thankyou for making me realize that I was never alone ❤️❤️❤️
Sent at 9:10

I exist Instagram, wipeing my tears, I put my phone down and go into the bathroom to splash my face

I look into the mirror above the sink, I feel so alone at times, I have nobody, I lose friends left and right, it's so sad because I have gotten so numb to it, the only person I have and can actually count on, is X, they're more than rappers to many of us

he's somebody we go to when we feel so low, he's somebody that helps me when others put me down, he's somebody that gives hope to this messed up world, he's somebody I can relate to in so many ways which is comforting in its self, knowing somebody i love and look up to has also been through messed up shit, knowing we have been in smaller situations helps me

We know we ain't alone no more and it's all thanks to X, he's somebody that helped many, myself included open up about things that we couldn't talk about before, he opened up about his childhood and even that came back positive! He's helped me and others by talking about his not very nice childhood because we now know we are no longer alone! I want to tell my story and hopefully have this kinda impact on others that feel alone, you're never truly alone

now I come to terms with my past and I can actually say, I was molested as a kid and it wasn't my fault, I always thought it was my fault because I didn't- no I couldn't say no but I didn't say yes either..

it was the pedos fault, I may not be able to say his name but maybe, in time, I will be able to say it

I've never spoken of it out loud but writing it down is a start, a start to coming to terms with it

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