𝐦𝐢𝐝𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬

𝐦𝐨𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐰𝐚𝐬𝐡

i will be drinking mouthwash
until i feel nauseated
until i throw up
till i can't taste you anymore

i wish i could make my mind stop
i wish i could shut it up
but sadly enough i cannot forget
the taste you left on my tongue

you smelled like weed
and i should have known
it's a dangerous path but still i dared
to walk all the way alone

submerged in water, pushed and pulled
i fought, soon struggled to breathe
but you just looked
with eyes so dull

i guess it was my own fault
for wearing a skirt so short
for going to that party
and agreeing to dance with you

for now, i am content
i'll keep drinking mouthwash to forget that night
but i'll be in a constant fight
with my contemplating mind

22.01.2020.