Constant Fear
I hate myself and my constant fear of everything
Every little things I do need to be consider million times
Every little decisions need to be supervised by thousand mind
Every little action need to be monitored throughoutly
I hate myself and my inability to reassure myself
Like you are your own person yet you afraid to touch the inner you
Like you nailed on nothing enough to be enough
Like you still beg validation of your own self and its stupid high standart
I hate myself and discouragement it throw away
I hate myself to believe I get to be carefel and rather stay away from society
I hate myself to think I'm capable of such a beautiful empathy and humanity
I hate myself to be a monster in the sake of my inconsistency
I hate myself to never believe in me
I hate myself to give me a cold shoulder when world against me
I hate myself for never put a faith in me
I hate myself for never love me dearly
B
U
T
In order to be free
And happy
I hate myself enough now to love it tenderly and infinity
No more constant fear
Just me and my small spark of fire to feel love and loved again
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Feb 4th, 2020
11.30 a.m
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