Hopelessly Satisfied// (UNDER EDIT)

Angelicas Sadness

Angelica pov

I sigh as I look into the mirror and saw my reflection, tomorrow was the winter's ball and my father is expecting me to find a suitor, knowing his expectations it'll most likely be a businessman or lawyer, it's just so unsatisfying to know that my father would most likely sell me off to an arranged marriage just because he had no sons...
Great! Now I have this bitter taste in my mouth I know it won't go away knowing the circumstances but right now I have to swallow the lump in my throat as I realize that there were tears in the bridges of my eyes "oh no.." I say as I wipe away the tears but more follow "ugh go away" I saw as I put my hands to my face as I feel myself start to cry, I knew that I had to be silent because I didn't want to attract attention.. so I cried quietly, I hate myself, there's no happiness that follows me if I ever get in an arranged marriage. I feel trapped.. why is this happening to me?
My cries become heavier but still silent as I try my best to lay down as I cry myself to sleep knowing what awaits me the next morning.

Elizas pov

I was with Peggy in her room talking about the winters ball "I can't wait, Peggy! What if there's a man that'll take me away and love me forever" we giggle in union "yea that sounds great I just can't wait to meet some soldiers" Peggy says "how so?" I ask her "it's bad enough there's fighting on our shore I would just like to see how everyone's doing with the war going on" she smiles at me whilst I nod, out of nowhere I hear a faint muffled sound in the room next door wait. That's Angelica's room... "hey Eliza you Ok?" Peggy asks me after I realize I was drifting into space "aw no-no pardon me it was nothing" I say "how about I get us some tea?" I said to Peggy
Suddenly Peggy gets excited "that sounds wonderful! I haven't had tea in a while so we should drink and chat at the same time" she says excitedly "and we can talk more about the winters ball" I nod as I get up to go into the hallway;
as I'm passing by the hallway I hear faint muffles coming from Angelica's room again, and then I realized that what I heard earlier wasn't my imagination, it must've been Angelica! out of curiosity, I press my ear against the door to hear sobbing, it's very faint but if you get close enough you can tell...
suddenly sadness overwhelms me, as much as I want to knock and check up on her I know that Angelica values her pride and doesn't want us to feel pity for her, so I reluctantly back away from the door and take a quick glance at it before I continued forward to get the tea.

"Hey what took you so long Betsy?"

Peggy asked me while I was entering the room with a tray and 2 cups of tea
"oh uhm" I hadn't realized that I had taken so long feeling guilty about angelica "I just ran into father and he has told me some boring detail about the Winters ball" I lied, nervously
"oh," Peggy said while she grabbed a cup of tea "ok then should we continue the conversation we had earlier?" Peggy asked while she sat down and took a sip
"yes yes of course Peggy"
I said as I sat down
I still couldn't shake the overwhelming guilt I had for Angelica
"I'm sorry Angie" I mentally say as I stare and the wall knowing that angelicas room was close.

And that she was suffering alone.