Finding Ourselves (Sequel)

Ch7

(Back to Mione ' s POV)

I had had a weird feeling about the night Draco and Ginny had disappeared for a while, but I never seemed to find the time to address it to him. I'd been so caught up in all of the wedding planning that I had completely forgotten about it for a while, but whenever I wanted to talk with Draco alone,  he always seemed to be busy.

I managed to corner him and he gulped when he saw the look on my face.

"Draco. I appreciate you are busy, but we must talk," I said firmly.

He opened his mouth to  respond, but I gave him such a look to make him comply that he did, and he followed me into a room, which I locked the door of.

"So, Draco, I want to get straight to the point. Why did you and Ginny disappear? Where did you go and what did you do?" I asked him, wanting a straightforward answer.

"I don't want to talk about this," He mumbled, walking past me, but I took his arm and I decided to pull him back a little bit.

"No. We will talk about this. I know you Draco, you're hiding something. I want to know." I said strictly, making him comply again.

"I am, but you can't know. It would ruin everything." He said sadly, hanging his head dejectedly.

"What have you done Draco?" I questioned, voice shaking slightly, as it dawned upon me what possibly could have happened and by the way he was acting, I had a sinking feeling that my inner suspicions were correct.

"You'll hate me."

"I could never hate you. I love you, whatever it is, we can work through it, but it will take time. Just tell me now." I insisted he did.

I wasn't normally as assertive with him, but I couldn't stand not knowing.

"I... Ginny and I were very drunk. It was the worst mistake I've ever made. I can't ever take it back. I don't deserve your forgiveness, I know that. I will try everything to make it up to you as I know sorry isn't enough. But... Ginny and I slept together. Her baby might be either mine or Blaise's." He confessed, looking so ashamed of himself that I could see he was truly sorry. I knew he'd never deliberately hurt me or my feelings, but he had committed infidelity and it had somewhat made me lose my trust in him. I was only human, then again so was he. But at the end of the day, he had been the one who had committed the fault, so he had to make it up to me. I didn't know how, or what it would take. There was a lot at stake for us to lose and I understood immediately why he hadn't told me straight away, what with the baby and everything, but Ginny, she had no excuse either.  It wasn't fair for Blaise to be kept in the dark. I wouldn't tell him, she had to. I knew it meant nothing, but people didn't just sleep with people and expect their partner to be fine with it.

He'd taken an important part of me. My heart. He'd taken a lot. My virginity, he'd impregnated me, my heart, my soul and my love most of all.

"Draco. I appreciate that you told me. I want to be able to trust you again, so I will let you attempt to make it up to me. However, any trust I had in you is gone and it'll take a lot more than words to make up for it. The only reasons I'm allowing you to try make up for this is because we love each other,you insist your affair meant nothing, and we have a baby on the way." I assured him, so he knew exactly why.

"You're being a lot more calm than I thought." He said.

"Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt, but I won't achieve anything being unreasonable and it isn't like you ever cheated before, even though that isn't the point, but you get one chance only. One chance to make it up. It will take time though." I told him firmly.

"I'm such an idiot! We are supposed to be getting married Hermione. I can't believe I..." He let his voice fail him as the full impact of what he'd done, the pain he'd caused and what he'd risked by being an infidel hit him. His eyed swam with tears, and so did mine. Our baby would be born by the time it was time for Draco and I to marry.

"Draco, I want some alone time." I said quickly, turning so he couldn't see my tears falling, and as soon as I heard the door close, I broke down. I allowed myself to cry bitterly, unable to come to terms with it. I'd had suspected it, due to the way he'd been acting, but I couldn't believe it. I decided to try get it all out of my system because he couldn't change it. What had happened had happened and as much as we wished we could change it, we couldn't. It would probably prove we could get through anything if our love survived this. I looked down at the ring on my finger and twirled it a little and toyed with the decision to keep it on or remove it, and I decided the latter. It remained on my finger because I had to keep the hope that everything would be ok in the end.

Although I wasn't sure then, if it would be.

A/N: things are starting to get interesting! I told y'all you wouldn't have to wait long! I like this chapter best so far I think, even though it's so sad! I swear from my planning now I have like three to four topics to write about in the story now! I can't believe it! Also, this book won't make as much sense unless you read the first book. That is Deep IN My Heart. This is the sequel, just reminding those who wondered :) Anyways, love you all my BonBons! Love from PotterheadBonBon 💗 💗