Warning: I don't care, much like you all didn't.
To the people who were
My friendsAlyshia
James
Bethany
GemmaThat's right
I'm not scared to name
YouYou are all in your
Twenties & yet none
Of you have the bravery
Or decency to say
SorryDon't cry to me Beth
In the footwell
& then watch me read
Streams of messages
That made my feet-fall
Through the floor of
Everything I thought we
Were
Messages
Which broke
12 years of friendship
12 years of defending you
Of believing youDon't approach me in the street James
& not even defend your
Cheating nosey...what did
Beth & gemma call her?
Oh yes, that's right
"Its always all about alyshia"-
Girlfriend
Just shrug your shoulders
& plan for the
Benefit baby
After laughing at me
& saying
'You Lowy, a mum? Ha'
At least I'm not in debt
Up to my eyeballs
In a relationship that's built
On crying wolf to different
Parties
On arguments &
Checking each other's phone's
& secret messages of
Distrust
& kissing old men at the
RestaurantYou are lucky gemma
Because I have no words
To give you
You deserve none the police told me
& I'm happy to do as
They saySo I guess now
The law has record
That you are
All twisted
Because secrets
Between you all
Never stay hiddenRat a tat tat
Rat a tat tat
Rats rats rats
You keep
Ratting
Each other
Out
Behind eachothers
Backs!& the professionals keep
Laughing at you all
But I just feel
Ashamed of it allThese people talking so dark
Were suppose to be my
Friends
Now they are
Monsters
Now I'm sat here thinking
What am I suppose to be
Sat here
Thinkin?I don't know what kind of humans
Bully a person who is so
Vulnerable
I don't know what kind of people
Find that
Entertaining?No one serious is laughing
Everyone here is too
DisgustedA worker approached me
Today & said
Love, it's ok
Bad people like that
Are better far awayI agree
So let's hope
The decider will forgive you
For going to the lying devil
Instead of the truth telling girl
That loved & cared for you all
The girl you
All knew
The girl you all tried to
Obsessively killBecause a case is building
& it's looking pretty ugly
& I don't actually want to
Protect nasty people
Anymore
I have had a lifetime of doing that
After-allWell
Its never too late to
Aplogise
But the words have already
Come out &
I find myself not actually
Caring anymore
I think I'm numb
To you all
& I'm not holding out for
All of your lies
AnymoreI'm instead letting
God decide
If they forgive you- Because I certainly never have to.
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