Dark & Wild: A HopeJae Story

Birthday Kiss

Feb 18, 2019

Hobi's birthday rolled around, him and I have been going steady still regardless of how I felt about the whole thing, Hobi sending me off to a rehab group for drugs since I lied to him about why I was stealing from him and BTS, Hobi and I both confronted BTS about it and they support the decision of a rehab group, I've been going every weekend for 3 hours, it was a total waste but I attended to strengthen my relationship with Hobi and BTS with strict orders to do so by Yugyeom

Hobi and I normally hang out at his place when I don't have to work or for a little while after my rehab sessions, we would spend the time watching movies or chatting, which is where I get a lot of my information on Jungkook and Taehyung, sadly, Hobi told me BTS don't hang out as a group much anymore due to all the children and have very little time, this wasn't great to hear from my perspective since I was supposed to be spying on them as a whole but it saddened me to think about it

Hobi turned to me in the middle of the movie "I wanna take you somewhere" I turned to look at Hobi but my attention was still on the movie "Why? It's your birthday and you said you wanted to watch movies" I finally shifted my gaze from the movie to Hobi who was looking at me with shiny eyes due to the light from the tv and the rest of the apartment is dark "Yeah, but now I wanna take you somewhere" Hobi smiled softly, he has definitely gotten more confident with me and I think I've gotten more accepting of him as my fake boyfriend

I shrugged and nodded "Ok, sure" I stood up from the couch after pausing the movie and waited for Hobi to get up, which he did seconds after me. We headed to the car where Hobi spent the next 30 minutes driving to a wooded area, a part of me was a nervous, scared wreck as to why we came out here but the other part of me was kind of excited and curious, curiosity did kill the cat though...

Hobi parked the car at the end of the dirt road we were on, the rest of the way was only accessible by walking so Hobi and I got out of the car and began walking "Where are we going?" I mumbled, my nerves speaking freely "You aren't planning to kill me, are you? I've apologized several times for stealing and I haven't taken anything since" I started to ramble when Hobi smiled and placed both hands on my upper arms to stop me "Calm down, I'm not gonna kill you. I'm actually very proud of you for not stealing again...In a way, this is a gift for both of us" Hobi slid a hand down and grasp one of my hands before tightly holding onto it and leading me further through the narrow trail

I silently followed Hobi, wondering why he was so nice and sweet to me, I felt the familiar guilty feeling in my gut and averted my eyes to the ground, this has been happening for the last few days, why did I feel guilty? I opened my mouth to ask Hobi when and where we were going when Hobi spoke up first "We're here!" Hobi released my hand and walked ahead as I turned to face the scenery before me, we were at a bank, plush green grass littered the ground and the water was calm and a deep blue "Wow...This is beautiful Hobi" I gaped as I stepped forwards, following the small deer trail Hobi walked down to avoid the taller brush that had grown up "Yeah...my dad and I used to come out here all the time till he passed away, I never bring anyone up here...Until now" Hobi whispered the last part and looked to me which caused my cheeks to burn "Really?" I gulped, this was surprising

Hobi nodded and for a second I noticed Hobi glanced at my lips before he cleared his throat and sat down on the green grass beside the bank, I blinked a couple of times to regain my train of thought after thinking on why Hobi looked at my lips before I sat down beside Hobi "So, I'm the first person you brought out to your special place?" This made me smile, hearing the words coming out once again and my smile grew bigger when Hobi hummed in response "Yeah. And the only person I want to bring out here" Hobi mumbled which caught my attention and I turned to look at him quickly "What?" I unconsciously glanced down to Hobi's lips like he had done to me just moments ago "I said you're the only person I want to bring out here" Hobi repeated himself as he locked eyes with mine, I was stunned, flattered and embarrassed, how can this boy make me feel this way? I thought I didn't have any romantic feelings towards him or did I?

Hobi and I stayed silent both of us awkwardly staring at each other's lips and eyes, nobody moved both of us was too scared to make the first move, I wasn't even totally sure I wanted this to happen, then again, my feelings had no place butting in since I was under strict rules from Yugyeom. As I was in thought I hadn't realized Hobi had started leaning in until I felt his warm, soft lips press against mine, I jumped a little out of shock since I had spaced out but once I felt Hobi's lips I closed my eyes and began kissing him back like this was the only thing I wanted in life, how I could do such a thing after I thought I was straight baffled me, but I enjoyed every second of the kiss which lasted for a minute, lips moving in sync but no tongue was added and neither of us attempted to heat the kiss up or spice things up in any way, this was mutually a first time, soft kiss filled with passion, to my surprise, that we both were enjoying. Finally, our lips separated and Hobi pulled away slowly to sit back in his place properly, I stayed still, eyes closed as the feeling of Hobi's lips were still on mine, Hobi was my first kiss... "YoungJae...Are you ok?" Hobi's soft voice brought me out of my trance and I opened my eyes to look at him, a smile spreading across my face "Mm, that was my first kiss" I admitted softly which caused Hobi's cheeks to tint pink immediately "Oh...Well, you were my first kiss as well" Hobi admitted as well, we both shared a laugh before I leaned on Hobi's shoulder to stare out over the water

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Feb 26, 2019

For the past 8 days, I have been feeling weird towards Hobi, I had butterflies in my stomach every time I saw him, heard his name or if somebody mentioned him I was feeling dizzy and excited every time, this worried me so I called a group meeting at the warehouse and all of Got7 sat on the new couch and chairs I had bought for the place "So what's the problem?" Yugyeom snapped, pissed I had wakened him from his slumber for a group meeting in the middle of the night "I want to back out of this fieldwork" I mumbled shyly, scared of Yugyeom snapping my head off, literally "What?" Yugyeom growled "You can't back out now, we're so close! What's your reasoning?" Yugyeom glared at me which caused me to falter and cower back, JinYoung looked at me worriedly

"I just...I'm uncomfortable with this" I rubbed the back of my neck nervously, my answer didn't satisfy any of the members as all of them but JinYoung started to scoff, laugh, groan in annoyance or something else in the midst that they didn't believe me "You need a better reason than that" Yugyeom huffed "This is a serious mission, you can't just back out because you're uncomfortable, we've all been through missions where at least some of us were uncomfortable" Yugyeom pointed around to the members who agreed, all but JinYoung as he wasn't on Yugyeom's side but still too scared to speak up to him

I lowered my head and sighed "That's the reason...I just...Nevermind" I mumbled and one by one the members cleared out of the living room to go back to bed "You ain't backing out, whimp" Yugyeom snarled at me as he walked by me on his way to his bedroom. After they were all gone JinYoung walked up to me "YoungJae, why did you really want to back out?" JinYoung asked worriedly, wondering if I was hurt probably "JinYoung...I think I like Hobi" I looked up at JinYoung who was wide-eyed with shock "You...Like Hobi? This is impossible" JinYoung stuttered "I know, and I didn't mean for this to happen, honest!" I begged, hoping JinYoung understood and didn't abandon me for this, JinYoung exhaled and pulled me into a hug "I don't blame you YoungJae, this happens to a lot of people, I mean, I fell for JB even though he was an asshole and I hated him at first" JinYoung admitted and I remember the story he always told me about how the two became boyfriends, JB was JinYoung's enemy at first, then they grew fond of each other. I laid my head on JinYoung's shoulder and closed my eyes "Thank you for understanding Hyung, You're my best friend" I nuzzled JinYoung's chest which made JinYoung smile and rub my back "You're mine too"