Dark & Wild: A HopeJae Story

Hopeful

July 4, 2019

I wandered the streets all night long as I was unable to sleep due to stomach cramps and being nervous about being pregnant, constant thoughts rolling through my tired head, should I tell Hobi? He deserves to know...it's only been 4 days since I found out and I had decided to tell him today during our picnic, but...was it the right time? I exhaled loudly and leaned against a building I was walking by "I should tell him. I'm gonna tell him first thing when I see him" I decided finally and continued to walk, this time, to Hobi's apartment

I arrived at Hobi's apartment not long after but stood in front of the closed door for a good 5 minutes before being able to lift my arm and firmly knock on the wooden door. It was silent for at least a full minute before the door was roughly yanked open to reveal Hobi with red, swollen crying eyes like he had been crying for some time now. Upon seeing me, Hobi's expression darkened and he looked pissed "Hobi...?" I started but was quickly cut off by Hobi's stern voice

"What are you doing here?" I averted my eyes to the ground immediately, why was he angry? "You need to leave" Hobi added once I hadn't spoken up "Hobi!" I quickly looked up at Hobi who was fixing to shut the door "No! Don't even try to act all innocent! You lied to me!" Hobi's voice broke slightly at the end of his sentence. I furrowed my brows in confusion "What are you-" I started but Hobi quickly slammed his fist on the doorframe "You lied! You aren't who you claimed to be! How could you?!" Hobi's eyes filled with more tears and soon overflowed and let stream after stream of tears roll down his puffy cheeks

I bit my lip "Hobi I..." I rubbed my arm and looked down at the ground once more "I don't ever want to see you again! You lied to me, you never wanted to be with me in the first place, did you? God, I can't believe I slept with you! A lier! A fraud!" Hobi shouted and poked his index finger into my chest as he did, every word that left his lips physically hurt me "Hobi, please listen!" I begged, tears starting to form in my eyes now "I don't want to listen! How could you play with my feelings like that?! With everyone's feelings! You are the worst human being to ever walk this earth! Now leave!" Hobi pointed behind me to further tell me to leave, I stood there a moment, shaking and crying "Hobi..." I whimpered through tears but Hobi was having none of it, none of me, and slammed the door in my face "I'm pregnant..." I whispered to the door as Hobi had done left and he obviously didn't hear me

I turned away from his door and took off running as fast as I could to get as far away as I possibly could, tears streaming down my face and sobs escaping my lips. Eventually, I collapsed on the ground on my knees, I struggled to catch my breath through sobs. I had managed to run nearly out of town and found myself under a small bridge, I decided to lay down on the damp dirt to try my best to catch my breath but instead, I passed out from lack of breathing

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Sep 3, 2019

5 months into the pregnancy and I was still roaming the streets, I hadn't seen or heard from Hobi for 2 months and he even went as far as to disconnect my phone he bought for me, I felt truly alone at this time in my life, I truly had no one to talk to or to make me feel better, but I had to be strong for the child developing inside me, it will be my life, my light, my one and only

As I was busy walking while in thought, hands-on my belly which was now formed into a bump, I ran into somebody and fell to my butt with a thud "Ah, shit..." I groaned and rubbed my hip "Oh my God, I'm so sorry! Let me help you up" I looked up as that voice was very familiar and saw Hobi offering his hand to me. I hesitated to grab it and stared at him warily, Hobi sighed and reached down to my arm and gently helped me up "YoungJae, don't be scared of me... Look, I came to find you because... Well, I've been talking with the guys and" Hobi trailed off as he looked at my belly "Um..." Hobi stared in confusion "I was gonna tell you on the 4th of July, but..." I mumbled and looked away from Hobi