the thumping from my chest amplaphied. my vision was being blurred by salty tears. to see him in pain... because of me, i just couldn't take it.
my eyes wondered the room and quickly found an escape, it took no time to shift back and fly through the window.
"run" echoed in my head over and over, i kept feeling Joseph trying to mind link and after a two mile distance between us, i let him.
"Amara! im not mad please come back everything is fine" his desperate voice hoarsly rang through my head, how could i go back? i'm a monster.
"you know your right joseph, i am a coward. because if i dont run people get hurt! wether it's me or someone else you can't expect me to stay. you can't fall in love with a broken girl joseph... you just can't" tears rolled down my fur as i sat in a small clearing
the soft wind whistled through the lush trees, the gentle sun glazed over my whirey body and i found my eyes becoming increasingly heavy.
i trotted over to a patch of long grass and curled up, sleep taking over almost instantly, but joseph's worried face kept flashing in my head as my heart softly whimpered.
- - - - -
i ran up to Joseph, my brother, and quickly saw the smile on his face widen. his open arms cradled me closer to him. sparkling tears splashed his shirt and we both sobbed willingly. was this real? it felt like i was present and aware of my dream... maybe this is really him.
"Amara i miss you so much" he muttered into my hair.
"jo... it's getting really hard to stay strong" i pulled away and looked up into his simpathetic eyes."everyone either hates me or expects too much of me... i can't keep running from everyone but it's just too hard to stay."
"Amara-" he sighed and grabbed my shoulders gently," it will all work out but i have to go, you can't run from destiny, you can only embrass it." as the last word left his mouth my eyes opened to a familiar sound.
a low growl filtered through my ears, i shot up onto all four legs, quickly checking the area. soon i found the source of the noise, a large black wolf.
i took my battle stance but still kept low, trying to show i was no threat. the wolf came up to me and circled around me, most likly sizing me up.
he softly nudged me asking for me to follow, as i was about to take a step in the other direction he barred his teeth growling once again. knowing there was no way around him i sighed and began to follow.
why do i get into so much trouble latly?
* JOSEPH'S POV *
I'm such an idiot.
"Thalia she blocked me out again! she said I 'cant love a broken girl'... she sounded so sad- what if she never comes back?! this is all my f-"
"STOP, Joseph calm down and stop being such a girl!" my worried expression shifted to one of pure fury, i sowly turned on my heal to face Andrew. did he really just say that- "I'm sorry but it's my fault, it was wrong of me to tell you about her past... i just- i thought if she ever was in trouble... you know"
"Andrew this isnt the-"
"YOU TOLD HIM?! ANDREW WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT?!" Thalia's mouth drapped open with eyes widened with shock, wait she knew too?!
"DID EVERYONE KNOW BUT ME?!" i exclaimed exasperated, this is so unfair i am her mate, im the alpha, how dare she.
Thalia walked up to me a soothingly rubbed my arm, her simpetitic look told me to calm down but i felt so betrayed. "Jo we have to work together to find her, this is no ones fault we just need to get her back before she causes any trouble"
* AMARA'S POV *
"do you know how much trouble you've caused?!"
i hung my head down in shame as alpha james outed about how his stupid pack thought i was a stupid rogue coming to kill every STUPID person in his stupid pack! he was being all butt hurt and i just sat there practically naked except for a short pair of boxers and revealing tank top. his shagy blonde flopped every where as his piercing green eyes burrowed into mine. yes he was attractive, but enough is enough if i run into one more alpha i swear-
"ANSWER ME" his fists slammed down infront of me, i slowly raised my head to show him how absolutly unamused i was.
"theres not much to say, i was sleeping on minute then the next thing i know a big idiot comes and forces me into his territory-"
"YOU WERE ALREADY IN MY TERRITORY" his cheeks flushed and i could tell i was realy getting to him. so of course i pushed.
"look mr. idiot i'd be happy to leave and not come back assuming your done bitching?"
"you watch your self miss, doesnt your mate keep better track of you" his big hands pointed to my neck, confusing me for a moment, till my fingers came across the mark joseph left on my otherwise perfect skin.
joseph...
it's begining to feel that i come across more trouble when i run, but if i stay i couse even more.
when did my life get so pathetic?
