𝐍𝐎𝐍-𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒

Everybody wants to know if we fucked on the bathroom sink

I woke up with a headache and a beam of light right in my face. I had slept deeply, a long dreamless sleep. It took me a couple of minutes to realize I was in my bed, in my apartment.

Slowly, all the memories came back.

When we left the bathroom, Matty said "see you around" and I lost him quickly. I was confused and high, let alone I was feeling guilty for my own fantasies. Fantasies that would have turned into a reality if his phone didn't ring. Matty had a girlfriend. If he couldn't keep his hands to himself, I should have at least tried not to let him drag me in his game.

After the awards, me and my friends went to an after party where we didn't know anybody. I'm still trying to figure out who invited us. I struggled to remember, I got drunk quite easily.

I sat on my bed, trying to get the thoughts out of my head. Only then I realized I was wearing an oversized white t-shirt that wasn't mine. Shit. I got up and wandered around my apartment. There was nobody. I breathed a sigh of relief. But there I was, still, with a shirt that wasn't mine.

Then I remembered. Last night I had way too many drinks. I was barely on my feet and this guy helped me so I didn't fall every two steps. I couldn't even remember his face or his name, let alone remember how, when or why he gave me his shirt. Despite the confusion, I was sure I didn't sleep with him.

I took my phone to check if I had any texts or pics that could clear my mind, but too many emails and notifications stole my attention. I opened Twitter and I couldn't believe in my eyes. There were plenty of articles, pictures and videos of the night before, of that Victor saying shit about me, of Matty speaking up for me. And then, pictures of me and Matty leaving the bathroom together. There it was, as I was sure it was, the article written by The Sun.

"What is going on between Matty Healy, 30, and Arianna Nasti, 22? The frontman of The 1975 spoke up for the lead singer of The Afterdream at yesterday's award show, after Victor Westwear sexually insulted her. At the end of the night, the two were seen leaving the bathroom together. We have no information of what happened between them on the inside. All we know is that Healy attended the award show with rumoured girlfriend, FKA Twigs, 32, after the split with previous girlfriend of 4 years, Gabriella Brooks, 23. Healy started the night with FKA Twigs, but ended it, in the bathroom, with Nasti. Will this get him in trouble at home?"

Fuck.

Incoming call from Jeremy

I sworn.

"Hello?"

"Ari, my lovely, I don't care what you do in your private life but fucking in the toilet? With that Matthew, who has a girlfriend anyway? Right after your first ever award? Fucking hell"

I rolled my eyes. "Jeremy, I fucked no one in the toilet. We just met in there and I thanked him for saying those things up on the stage. That's it, I promise"

"I don't care if you did or didn't. People believe you did"

"And why should I care?"

"Cause tomorrow we're announcing new tour dates"

"Tour starts in autumn. People will forget about this shit soon. And if you think people will not buy tickets you should - "

"I'm just saying" Jeremy interrupted me "you're a public figure now. People will care who you date, whether you like it or not, and your reputation will influence the band's reputation so - "

"So should I answer to strangers about my private life? I'm a songwriter, not Kylie fucking Jenner"

Jeremy stayed quiet for a bit. "You're free to do whatever you like. Just prepare yourself, cause if you want to run away from the lynching, you should work harder to keep your life private. So, if you want to fuck Matty Healy in the toilet, you should do it in your toilet"