𝐢𝐧 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐬

chapter 7

SEVEN:
a drunken apology
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"I've written apologies, searched it up—hell I even fucking read shit—about something I could say but I know nothing's going to change what I said..."

blaze

Blaze watched as Dimitri chased Ellie through the backyard, their laughter muted through the bulletproof glass. The smallest of smiles pulled at his lips when Ellie fell, Dimitri toppling on top of her. The two of them had wide smiles on their faces before Ellie stood back up, helping his son up again.

Blaze chewed on his bottom lip and felt his smile widen when Ellie began chasing Dimitri. He turned back from the window, staring at the paperwork in front of him before resting his head in his hands, biting his lip.

He knew he fucked up. He fucked up bad. He didn't mean anything that he said and repeating it to himself the entire day yesterday made him feel disgusting. He didn't even how what Ellie asked set him off in such a way. Blaze would gladly let her go to town... it was the fact that it wasn't him that would have to look after her while she went.

Blaze shook his head with a grunt. Why the hell was she invading his thoughts so much? It had been at least a week since he had blown up the way he did on Ellie and the guilt was eating him alive. He wasn't used to feeling the squeeze in his chest and it only worsened as the days went by.

Day one was when Blaze confronted Ellie—tried to, at least. She avoided him and he didn't blame her but he was trying to apologize and he wasn't used to wanting to give people time. It was at that time that Blaze was still angry—for some odd reason—so when she ignored him, he decided to ignore her back.

Day two he tried to talk to her again. He pulled her out of the living room and tried to talk but Ellie simply told him that she had no reason to listen to what he had to say before walking back into the living room and started talking to Sebastian.

Blaze used to have no problem with Sebastian. They used to be decent acquaintances—then Ellie showed up; assigning Sebastian to watch her while she was with Dimitri was the stupidest decision Blaze ever made and he realized that now.

Maybe he was only feeling this way because Ellie was the first beautiful woman he had seen in a long time (that hadn't had any insertions or surgeries, at least). Ellie naturally had clear skin and never wore makeup, making it easy to see the freckles scattered across her nose and cheeks, long lashes that made her violet eyes pop. He noticed how unlike her ass (yes, Blaze looked at it—a lot more than he probably should), Ellie's chest was small. He didn't mind since he was more of an ass guy, anyway. And the curves that woman had on her...

I need to get laid. Blaze shook the thought of Ellie out of his head, running his tongue along the scars on his inner cheek.

He looked back out the window and clenched his jaw when he saw Sebastian and her talking. Ellie was right about Sebastian, as much as Blaze hated to admit it; for the last two weeks, it's been him there. It all happened because Blaze was stupid enough to get him to watch her.

Maybe all he needed was a night out. He could go out with his friends to one of the clubs he owned and hopefully find someone there; he could probably bang out his sexual frustrations with some stripper for the night and these stupid thoughts of his would be done with.