The Power of a Petal

Fresh Water

When I exited the bathroom, Legoshi was there still. I was clean, finally clean after washing all the way down my throat for fifteen minutes.

"What the hell was that?!" He growls, like he cared. I shake my head, eternally clawing at my arms for forgetting my backpack, again. My ears don't rise, my tail doesn't move, I feel guilty for saying it.

"I won't bite you..." I whisper, and Legoshi stands tall.

"Oh... You feel it too?" He whispers, I slowly look up at the wolf who had a look that read, 'don't worry'. I should worry, I was going to attack something. Someone.

"What do you mean? Is this... Are these... 'Instincts'?" I whisper, terrified of why I felt it around both Haru and Louis. They are herbivores, thats why. I shudder, and Legoshi bends down to me.

"I have to get to Drama Club, I'll see you around ok? Meet me before class starts tomorrow. What day is it?"

"U-uh.... Thursday? I think... Where?" I whisper, tears prickling my golden eyes.

"Uhm... how about the, the gates to the school?" I nod, wondering why he would ever wanna meet me again after what he witnessed. I nod, smiling gratefully.

"Stop shutting everyone out ok?" And with those words I could only feel angry as he walked off. Shutting people out? Really? I've seen you, I've seen the way you scowl through the hallways. You dislike interactions you don't enjoy people. So who the hell do you think you are? Telling me to stop shutting people out?

I can only leave to grab my bag, meeting Haru near the filthy house.

"Are you alright? Where is Legoshi?" She whispers, handing me a white damp towel. I take it, feeling guilty for thinking of her as dirty. I dislike myself, I just yelled at Legoshi in my head, he was just trying to help. Haru, do you still consider me your friend? Are we even friends? My jaw trembles, my nose sniffs around, and I can't help the tears falling down my fur.

"I'm sorry. I-I'll clean up." I whimper, disliking me at the moment.

"It's alright! Whats going on?" She follows me, bringing around the hose I left. I look at the pot I left with my throw up. Ew.

"I'm just... not feeling well. To be honest... I don't know actually. New feelings, new things. ya know? I am truly sorry though." I ignore the memory engraved in my head of Louis leaving the dirty house.

"It's totally fine! Come on, you should sit down. I'll take care of this. I have a present for you." She whispers, rushing past me to clean the pot and such. I'm jealous of her. It doesn't matter that I'm a virgin and she isn't, its just that she has all these animals wrapped around her fingers. Legoshi, a carnivore five times her size, Louis with all his fame, and me, who just happened to help her avoid her death. I shouldn't be jealous, but I am. I've never felt such feelings. I'll avoid Louis for now. He's dirty. I watch the small herbivore work, and I can't help feeling things I shouldn't feel. Jealousy, anger, sadness, and fear. I was afraid of her. Just a little, most likely because she was strong. If she disappears, it'll be my fault and I'm afraid of that. I guess I feel entitled to be her guardian. We protect each other, even though she can't do much. I understand this now, Haru. Thank you for almost dying that night, no matter how much I hate that saying.

"Alright done. Come on, I received some new seeds today, and they remind me of you. Naturally, they are Asphodels. If only they were yellow like your eyes..." She continues talking, and I can only listen and watch her carefully lift a pot of tall, white buds. Some were blooming, some were fully grown, some just sprouting. The beautiful petals of the fully grown ones made me blush. Why? I don't know. She hands me one, and I grin.