Brenden
It has been 3 years since i have seen your face
2 years since i have heard your voice
You were 7
I was 12
I was getting inside of a police car
When you ran to my side and said in your hushed tone
"Please dont go."
I only respond with
"I have too."
Little did you know i was getting in that car, because Daddy wouldn't let me go home
I was visiting him, and you
I wanted to go home
I used to tell you,
"A bird may leave the nest, but it always comes back home."
I remember the nights you would hug me so tight and say,
"I'm never letting go."
The you would fall asleep in my arms
No matter how many times i said i wouldn't leave
I always did
This one time, your mom
Grabbed me up by the throat
And told me to stay away from you
She was a drunk, and an addict
She was never home
I would cook you meals
Hold your hand
Listen to your stories
I would kiss your boo boo's
I would smile and laugh
I would wipe your tears away
Sometimes I lay in bed at night thinking of you
Did you forget me?
Do you miss me?
I remember all the time you would ask me,
"You'll always love me right?"
I would respond with,
"How could I not."
I loved you like my own child
I think about all the thing your mother did to you
How in the Hell, can someone do that to their own child
Give them a scar that no one can ignore
That scar on your lip
You were running away from you mom
She slapped you
Your face hit a picture frame on the wall
She left afterwards to go to the bar
I came and help you in my arms
Saying im sorry, i should've helped you
I wont let this happen anymore
Yet, I did leave
I got into the policeman's car and left
All because, i wanted to go see my mom
My family
I left you
And im sorry
I was born brand new, yet inside i was 35
Already grown up because the people around us were childish
Already knowing the consequences in the world
Because of the lack of protection
Already a "mother"
Because of crappy parents
My little Darling
Brenden
You would always try and tell me metaphors
Saying, "The sun will shine tomorrow, and you will too."
"Your just a caterpillar, you just need to take the time to become a butterfly."
I never realised you knew i was gonna leave one day
I never meant to hurt you
I never meant to break my promise
I always tell myself that I love you
And one day, i'll come and get you
And take you far away from the hell you call home
I look at myself and realise
Im this person because of you
Your eyes deeper blue than the sea
Your breath always cooling, and comforting
Your smile, shines a light in the darkest dark
Your tears, come from the ocean
Your blood, half belonging to me
Your hair, more golden than the sun
Your hands, so strong and calloused
Your laugh so intoxicating
Everyone laughs with you
I cant come and see you
Even though i wish i could
If i had one wish
It would be for you to be happy
WIth no pain
So you wouldn't have to battle for life everyday
So you wouldn't have to wish for something better
I would make your life, so easy
I would make everyday an adventure
When i thought i was lying on my deathbed
You were in my thoughts
Me thinking you weren't going to see me before i die
Broke everything i ever believed in
Even though i'm better now
I couldn't help but thing i was abandoning you
My rage burning thinking that the ods were taking me away
I swore you were forever burnt into my memory
So i could look into every mirror
And see you
So i wont forget My darling
Im still here waiting for you
So i can remember
That you are my reason for living
Forever Forget Me Nots make me think of you
A child wailing, will make me find them
Forever thinking its you
Every raindrop, will remind me of our rainy days
We are a far apart
But i will forever be in your heart
My Darling Brenden
Don't forget our promise
We Will Always Find Each Other, Even After Death
