what will you say,
if you see me now?
shivering in yet another defeat,
but not backing down.
I stand not unafraid,
I stand not undefeated,
but I continue on for myself
and only myself
and I hope you'll grow to understand that
with time.but maybe I am still a foolish fool.
I have carried on in the past for foolish reasons.
I have lived not for glory, but for spite,
and for that,
I am ashamed.I have lived not for myself,
but for others,
and for that,
I am disheartened.but now I live only for myself,
and for that,
I am undeterred.I live not without fear.
I live not without shame.
I live not without regret.
I live not without the biting feeling that I'm wasting my time.from cracks in the stone that binds me,
these words, I know, spill out.
but no one is careful enough to catch them,
and so,
they remain unnoticed.I have shed many skins
to escape my own sins.
I have died many times
to escape my self-directed lies.
I have cried myself dry
of tears, tears of mine.
I have waited so long
for someone to find me
that I have forgotten where I am
and how to find myself.I turn to the cards that guide me,
but the answers are all the same.
change,
death,
quiet,
look inward.but I don't know how.
please don't shut me up again.
I promise I'll be good.
but.. what do you mean?
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cracks in the stone that binds me
Poetryfrom cracks in the stone that binds me, these words spill out. I do not know what will come first, or what will follow- but I know they are from deep in my heart, and I cannot stop them from spilling through. there is only a shell of me, and only a...