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「𝐢 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮'𝐫𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞」

"hey you," yeosang sat in front of jongho as he spotted him in the cafe "hi hyung, how have you been?" jongho asks, closing his laptop to give the blonde his full attention 

"here and there, how is the furniture shopping with hyung?" yeosang asks, jongho blushes a bit but smiles, a tell-tale sign that everything is okay "geez, how domestic." yeosang mumbles before picking at jongho's food 

"how about you? i see that there is trouble in paradise." jongho sips on his coffee when he sees seonghwa calling yeosang and him just ignoring it "you can say that," yeosang shrugs taking out jongho's paper that he revised 

"what happened?" jongho asks, yeosang just sighs "he's on time-out for reasons," yeosang answers as he went over the essay once more "he's been sulky, even hongjoong is getting annoyed." jongho jokes a bit to lighten the mood, yeosang just gives him a small smile before sliding the paper over to the younger with his corrections 

"i can tell that there is a lot on your mind, tell me, what happened?" jongho encourages, he's heard seonghwa's side but it'd be more fair if he heard it from yeosang's side too 

"i-uh, i had a rough night a week ago, i had an attack out of fatigue and i somehow woke up johnny who helped me get through the night," yeosang pauses to look at jongho who just nods "and i guess seonghwa hyung walked in on us in the morning," yeosang was obviously nervous, by the way he was tapping the end of his pen on the blank page of his notebook 

"there wasn't anything to misunderstand, it was pretty much laid out, i had fallen asleep on johnny's lap while being hooked to my nebulizer and we just stayed that way until morning, nothing else happened." yeosang concludes, he was a bit hurt when he found out that seonghwa was upset with it 

"like, it just feels a bit suffocating that he's always breathing down my neck with everything i do," yeosang adds, yes, he liked attention from seonghwa but sometimes he appreciates just being by himself

"i think hyung is just jealous, you know, since you don't see each other everyday anymore, unlike summer break and i guess he's overcompensating because in his previous relationship, he wasn't attentive enough." jongho tries to reason out, which yeosang understood but at the same time, he didn't need to be babied 24/7 by his boyfriend.

"it's not the only thing that bothers me though," he adds, he didn't really know how to bring it up with seonghwa so maybe being able to tell someone can lift the weight off his shoulders "i somehow feel pressured because he keeps bringing up about moving in together and don't you think it's a little too early to move in together." jongho can see the guilt written in yeosang's face as he spoke 

"like, yes, it'd be great to live together and have a much more bigger space and some privacy but at the same time, i really love living with johnny, i love seeing my uni friends at odd hours of the night because jisung wants his freaking cheese sticks, or when i let yuta talk me into coming with him to get a piercing at ass o'clock in the morning, i love falling asleep in the gym amidst watching johnny practice, i love going up to the rooftop and wait for the sun to rise." he felt his throat somehow clog up as he was conflicted and guilt-ridden, jongho even noticed how shaky his voice had gotten as he narrates his reasons 

"i get what you mean hyung, you've already lived a quarter of your life in one place and you want to be able to explore and it doesn't always have to be with us, i understand what you mean," yeosang thanks his friend as he was able to finally get it out of his system "you really should talk to him about it, so he can understand your part or if it's okay with you, we can bring it up when we see him."