VIBEZ| DaBaby Urban

25.

Triple update👏 now y'all won't see me for like a year💀....JK

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I was asleep until noon and I slowly got up going to shower and chill with my grandmother. I walked into the living room. "Morning" I stated "afternoon" she said as we shared a laugh. "How was your night?" She asked as I just looked at her and shook my head. "Good I just feel I have too much of an independent tendency" I said shaking my head some as she gave me a mug of warm peppermint tea.

"Blame your momma and your daddy" she said as I giggled "I'm not mad at them for making me this way just sometimes I feel it can make me stubborn and just a-" I started off "a bitch" she finished off as I just looked at her and giggled. "No not a bitch" I said as we shared a giggle. "My father built me to be strong, I feel he built me to think like a boy and sometimes I say and do things that hurts a guy the way a guy would hurt a girl" I expressed.

"Oh lord what happened with you and Jonathan?" She asked sitting her mug on the coffee table. "He did a video with a woman who constantly kept flirting or that would throw subs at me and I took it. I was told "oh she's a comedian", "she just has a celebrity crush on me" I started off as my grandmother nodded. "Fast forward I'm out with a friend and I see on Instagram a picture of Jonathan and the girl, hands on her butt and they boo'd up mind you his face covered up but I know it's him because of his tatts" I stated

"She posted it on his page and made it seem like as if they were dating and people were commenting, I was just stuck there looking stupid. I ain't hear anything from him for days until I told him I was coming out here" I said. "He gave me the excuse of "I knew you were upset so I left you alone" and the excuse that it's work and basically I have to stop being jealous" I said as my grandmother nodded slowly.

"I understand there's work but there's a fine line between work and you disrespecting your significant other" my grandmother stated. "Earlier yesterday we got into a heated argument and I broke it off because he sees the heat that I'm receiving and isn't saying anything. He can open his mouth up when a guy comes my way but when I'm being disrespected by a female I'm the one tripping" I said frustrated some.

"I see why you broke it off then. If he wasn't going to remove the very thing tarnishing the relationship then he didn't deserve to be with you, a man doesn't allow another person to disrespect the one he's with it don't matter if she the First Lady of america or if she's First Lady of a church he doesn't let anyone disrespect his woman" she expressed as I nodded.

"So this morning I went back because he sounded like something was going on. I went cuddled with him and he cried some then we had sex and I immediately got up getting ready to come back here" I started off as she cut me off. "I understand you're upset but if he's crying then you should've stayed that was wrong" she said.

"He disregarded my feelings" I brought up "and I'm sure he apologized multiple times and i understand he may have disregarded your feelings but two wrongs don't make a right" She explained.

"I'm not siding with anyone because you both are wrong, he's wrong for not backing you Up and putting a stop to that girl and you're wrong because you're doing things out of anger and hurt now" she said as I sighed some. "He expressed to you his feelings and you basically was there for sex and dipped like a nigga" she compared as I looked at her.

"Grandma I'm so hurt and angry I was thinking about sleeping with a guy just to do it, and I know it's not right and I can take accountability for it but he didn't even have my back , he didn't even try to talk to the girl I was just made out to be jealous, I look stupid on the internet and it's the same B.S each time" I said as I wiped a tear from my eyes.

"You're grown baby who you sleep with that's your business I just want you to stay protected but baby you can't do things out of anger. You're so angry, you might not show it on the outside like that but your heart is hurting and I know because I had a dream about you mama" she said as tears started falling from my eyes.

"You have to let it go baby" she said shaking her head as tears rushed from my eyes down my cheeks. " if you don't let things go, it's going to kill you, what that boy did to you, what Ashley did to you baby God will deal with it but you have to let him deal with it. Let it go" she said as she took the mug from me setting it on the table holding me as I cried.

"I know it's going to be hard to let it go because it's something traumatic but letting it go is better than having a hardened heart. You won't be abled to love the way you're supposed too if you keep holding onto this" she said rubbing my back as I wiped my tears. "You know what you need to do baby" she said as I sniffled.

She's been trying to get me to come back to church for a minute but I've been pushing it on the back burner. I feel as if I'm not pure enough to even sit in the presence of God but I also knew he was trying to get my attention for a minute and I just wouldn't listen.

"I know" I mumbled as she just held me, "I promise if you would just stop running things would change but you won't sit still because you're afraid. He sees everything and knows everything there's nothing you can hide from him he just wants you to talk to him" she stated as I nodded. "So Sunday you're coming to church with me" she said rubbing my arm as I nodded.

"Just let go baby, you'll be fine. You don't have to handle every situation you don't need a response to every situation. Just be at peace in your mind and your heart and all else will fall away" she stated then gave me a faint smile. "Okay?" She asked as I wiped my eyes dry and nodded. "Okay" I said as we shared a faint smile.

"I want my great granddaughter baptized too" she added as I giggled "she will be grandma" I assured