You: My Last Hope

PROLOGUE

Note: This is somehow true to life story. The writers of this story have connections to the main character. We created this to help the character to release all the pain that she has right now.

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"May mga bagay na hindi tayo sigurado kung bakit kailangan mangyari. Para subukan ka? Para palakasin ka? O para saktan ka lang? Sa sobrang daming tanong, di ko alam kung paano ito masasagot. Isa lang ang alam ko, kapag nagmahal ka ng maling tao, sakit ang kapalit nito."

These were the last lines of the story that my student had made. I am staring at his notes, until I realized the tears are falling from my eyes.

"Ms. Coronel, tumawag po si Kuya Guard, may naghahanap daw po sa inyo." our school helper told me.

On my way going to the guardhouse, I was wondering kung sino naman maghahanap sakin,  random ah, wala naman akong inaasahang bisita ngayon.

I stopped when I saw the glimpse of his face, his eyes which actually asking me to go nearer to him, the weak of his stand. I stopped, turned around ready to walk but.....

"Ali, please just a minute. Please talk to me." he's holding my right arm so tight. Few people is looking at us. I don't want to start a trouble.

"Inside your car. Let go of my arm."

I am walking straight, not minding the people who are staring at us.

"Ali, I know it's my fault but aren't you happ..."

I cut him off.

"Buti pumasa ka sa pagka doctor kung hindi ka marunong umintindi sa salitang AYAW KO NA, TAMA NA. Mahirap ba? Nahihirapan na ko, sagad na sagad na ko. Inubos mo na ko, di p ba sapat yun?"

I am looking straight in front, urging my self not to look at him. I am about to open the door when I felt his right hand holding the right part of my head and his lips kissing my forehead.

"Last chance Ali. Hindi ba pwedeng ako naman ang piliin mo, sumama ka sakin, lalayo tayo.Ipapangako kong magiging masaya tayo."

Naramdaman ko ang mga luha nya sa balikat ko.
Gusto ko sanang yakapin sya ng mahigpit at sabihing sasama ako sa kanya pero hindi ko dapat gawin yun.

Tinanggal ko ang mga kamay nya sa ulo ko.

"Alam mo laging yan ang nasa isip ko, nakakahiya man dahil mali pero minahal kita......  noon."

Narinig ko ang paghikbi at hagulgol nya.

"Please Ali, please choose me." Ang maigting na salita na nagmula sa kanya.

"Wala nang pag asa, wala na kong ibibigay Jeff."

"Kung may pipiliin ako, hindi ikaw yun. Sarili ko."

I calmly closed the door and went back to my work.