Asahi's POV (trigger warning; self harm, intrusive thoughts.)
The rest of the evening was pleasantly calm with Noya. We ate the food my mother had cooked while we were out and were now doing homework but I was a bit bothered. My mother. She was sleeping a lot these past few days and when she did get up she was weary and that concerned me. I started to think about bad outcomes because that is the way I am. Negative...
"...Um I'll be back in a second." I say as I get up from my desk, but before I get up I make sure to get a small blade and store it In my pocket.
"Sure." Noya says not noticing the object Asahi slipped into his pocket...
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The silence I found myself sitting in was absolutely deafining. But my focus was so intensely concentrated on the numerous cuts on my forearm I barely noticed the silence. A bloodied razor thrown aside and tears flowing from my blank eyes. I couldn't help but think
'Why is Noya still with me..."
He doesn't want to be your friend, you know that. A voice murmured,
"Asahi? Are you okay?" He asked his voice leaving hints of worry.
I get up and splash my face with water quickly pull down my sleeves and open the door quickly.
"I'm sorry that took so long." He apologized.
"No! It's no problem at all!" He says going back to my room. I follow him back into my room and I discreetly slip the blade back into my drawer.
I go back to doing my homework in silence focused.
"Asahi? I'm having trouble with this question here can you help?" He asked me the look on his face was a mix of confusion and frustration it was kinda cute...
"Sure." I sit down next to Noya and roll up my sleeves, I would always roll up my sleeves when I'm focused, at that point it was a subconscious action.
"Well, I don't under-" he paused. I glanced over at him and found he was examining my arm. Quickly I pulled down my sleeves to cover the many cuts.
"What don't you understand?" I said attempting to remove his focus from my arms. I didn't want him to know about this...
Nishinoya took my hand and pulled up my sleeve Hastily. His face expressionless.
"What is this?" He asked in a weary voice. I tried to take my arm back but failed. He stared at me his eyes full of disappointment and concern. I looked at the floor avoiding Noya's gaze.
"Asahi, please tell me what's wrong." Noya pleaded softly his eyes beginning to water.
My eyes started to brim with tears too and I looked back at him."Its nothing..."
"This isn't nothing...you have to tell me. Please tell me you don't have to hide it." Asahi the looked at the boys eyes tears had already started falling.
Noya wrapped his arms around Asahi in effort to comfort him, he was trying to hold back from spilling tears but a few escaped. To Noya It was one of the most painful things seeing Asahi like this it was unbearable to see him this broken...
I buried my face into Noya's shoulder and let the tears spill.
"I'm so pathetic...worthless, terrible, stupid I can't do anything. Maybe if I didn't stress my mother out so much she wouldn't be in this condition...it's my fault." My voice broke and I didn't continue.
"It is your fault, you're a terrible person." Said the voice
"No...no," Noya pulled away.
"Asahi. You are one of the best people I have ever met. You are sweet and wonderful and caring. You look out for people and you always make sure that they are comfortable. I don't know about anyone else, but that doesn't sound like a stupid, worthless, terrible person. That sounds like a super sweet caring and loving person do you understand. So stop saying these things about yourself, because they are not true." He said gently smiling softly.
"Now we should get to bed. It's pretty late." He said.
I nodded I was pretty tired too. We slipped into bed and not after long both Noya and I fell asleep. Noya's arms wrapped around me and mine around him...
"Good night..."
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Fanfiction🚨[CURRENTLY BEING EDITED]🚨 If some thing is broken, someone will fix it, But if the person is broken who will fix it? Do they all just, end up alone in the end? ...don't we all...? ⚠️[Angst]⚠️