A light || Ricky and Nini

Chapter 94

Nini POV

"I'm telling you Kourt, I knew something was off. I could feel it. And now he wants to talk? This just feels bad." I tell Kourtney as we walk from our last class of the day. "Maybe it's actually nothing." I look at her confused. "Come on, don't you think he might just want to keep you interested? Maybe keep his dude mystique." I laugh and shake my head. "I don't think that's it. Ricky isn't like that." Kourtney shrugs. "I wouldn't worry about it girlie. He loves you and you literally don't do anything ever." I shake my head as we walk through the hallway. "I don't know. He was just so distant. I just want to know why." I say quieter and I see a body shoot in front of me. "Woah, EJ." I say and he looks down at me. "What do you want, pretty boy?" Kourtney asks and EJ looks at her. "You know you like me." He says and she makes vomiting sounds in response. I hold back my laughter. "So the thing that's happening with you and Ricky?" My eyes shoot up to his and I wait a beat before I speak. "Who said there's a thing happening between me and Ricky and WHY would you know about it if there was?" I ask and he looks away guiltily. "EJ?" I ask and he looks back down at me. "Okay, please don't be mad." I bring my hands to my face as I wait for him to speak. "What?" I ask and he sighs. "So remember when I called you while you were at the wedding?" I nod slowly, faintly aware of the fact that Kourtney's looking at me confused. "I accidentally told him about that. Like the guy, and everything. But it wasn't because I was spilling your secrets or anything, I was asking how he dealt with jealousy. It came out and I thought you already told him so-" EJ continues to ramble and I sigh. "That explains why he came over to my place last night. I guess it just really explains everything." I say and EJ looks like he wants to say something. "Look, EJ it's not your fault. I told you I'd tell him and I didn't. To be honest, I was genuinely a little worried and tired of always imposing my problems on others, but obviously that backfired. It's not your fault." I say more to myself than to EJ but he nods. "What happened at the wedding?" I hear Kourtney ask and I look at her. My shoulders drop and I grab her hand. "Can we talk outside?" I ask and she nods. "I'll see you later, EJ." I say and he gives me a defeated wave.

When we get outside, Kourtney pulls me to a bench. "Talk babe." I tell her everything from Jason catching me and Ricky, to my uncomfortable encounter with him while EJ was on the phone. When I finish she just looks amazed. Not mad, just a little shocked. "You could've told me all of this." She says and I nod, tears starting to form. "I just always feel like I'm burdening the people around me with these stupid issues that are literally just every day things." I say and Kourtney nods. "I get that, especially when it's something that's happened before. You just don't want to constantly be the one who people have to deal with." She sums up my feelings perfectly and I wrap my arms around her, holding her tight. "That's exactly it." I say and she laughs, rubbing my back gently. "Ricky's gonna understand babe. I promise." My tears start to come at a faster rate and Kourtney pulls back. "Are you sure you're okay? You're really emotional." She says calmly, and I nod. "I feel like this is all the emotion from the weekend." I say, gesturing to my crying. She smiles but she looks a little worried. "Breakdowns are normal but I just want to make sure you're okay." I nod. "My period is also probably pretty close." I say and she grabs my phone from my purse, opening my app. "You're a day late babe. That might explain it." I look at her. "What?" She asks and I shake my head. "He and I were careless and forgot the condom." Her face pales. "Did you remember though? Before..." I nod and she breathes out. "Well that's at least good news. Just watch out for your period and you're good girl." She says and her nonchalant energy calms me down right away. Nodding, I wipe away my tears. "You know I'm here for you whenever you need me to be, Nins. You're always carrying everyone else's emotions and making sure they're okay but you're dealing with your own too." She tells me, gripping my hands. I nod gratefully. "I guess a breakdown is really all I needed." I tell her with a smile and she pulls me into another hug. "Don't forget it's okay to do it too. Cry and be super sad and get all that bad energy out." She tells me and I laugh. "Who would I be without you Kourt?" She smiles. "A girl with really bad makeup products." We burst into giggles and I wipe at my tears a bit more before I hear a voice behind me. "You ready, Nins?" I hear and I turn to see Ricky. He squints when he sees my red and puffy face and he looks between me and Kourtney. It looks like he's trying to form his question but I cut him off before he can. "I'm fine, I just think that I need to talk to you." I say and Ricky is quiet for a second. "You want to talk to me?" I nod and I know he can feel the energy and the unspoken words between us. ""If that's okay..." I say and he nods frantically. "No yeah, that sounds great." He says and he reaches his hand out to hold mine. "Can we go to the park?" I ask and he nods. "Absolutely" he says and I turn to blow a kiss to Kourtney. I don't miss the way Ricky squeezes my hand a little bit.