Random Thoughts

disaster

so I don't think I ever told y'all the story of when I was forced out of the closet by my parents

so this was a good 4-5 months ago and I had come out to my sister the day before anytime me and my sister talk my parents immediately become suspicious so when my dad found us talking he told my mom btw my sister is gonna be 23 this year and is one of the only adults I'm willing to talk to about my problems my sister gave me some advice about how to come out but the one thing she kept saying was "don't just say that you are bisexual because they won't believe you"

the next day after breakfast my parents said, "come and sit down with us" so confused I walked over and began thinking about all the shit I had done recently and nothing came up

my parents said "why don't you tell us what you were talking to your sister about yesterday" so I said that I wasn't ready yet and I still need more time til I'll be ready to talk yet they wouldn't let me go to my room and I began to get pissed

so I did the exact thing my sister said to not do and I yelled "I'm bisexual okay?!" my parents stopped and stared at me til my mom said "you can't go saying that so flippantly" there i was told "you don't know yet" "you're too young to understand" "you can't know unless you've had relationship and as far as we know you have not" "we will still love you whether you're gay or straight"

that was exactly why I didn't want to tell them shit and at the end my mom asked me "did the conversation go how you expected" "yea you guys don't believe me and y'all keep saying I'm confused" she then goes on saying how they don't believe that I'm confused but that I just don't know blah blah blah after they finally let me go and I cried for a few minutes because it felt like my parents didn't accept me

anyway a few days ago my parents began talking about it and how they werent this aware about gender and sexuality at my age and my dad says "we don't understand all the crap about bi, pan, ace, non-binary or all that other stuff it just doesn't make sense" and I was so pissed and I was so hurt and I left that situation so fast

but basically what I learned is that while my parents accept gay people they don't accept bi, pan, ace, non-binary, or gender fluid people so to my parents I'm not valid and that my parents can be major assholes

thanks if you're reading this I guess I just needed to say (technically write) this