Ok I'm going to be honest,
I haven't felt this lonely in a long time.
It sickens me how co-dependent I am on the attention I receive from everyone in my life.
I love being close to people.
I love being able to touch them, speak to them, remind myself that I'm still here...
And that there is nowhere else I would rather be.
But there are some days that just aren't good,
You can't force them to be anything else. But that begs the question;
How do you cope?
How does anyone tread through their depths of loneliness which only they can pull themselves out of?
How do you know that the storm will ever pass?
Black and blue, how will you find the will to survive?
I'm exhausted. I'm tired of giving my heart, the only thing keeping me going at this point, and not receiving the same effort.
If the world was ending who would be there for me, other than me?
But I'm here to ask myself to be kind;
To others, and especially to myself.
I have to put it out there, I'm vulnerable right now.
I could shatter so easily, but it's ok
Because I know that if my world was ending my family and friend would be there to patch me up.
Because I'm always there for them.
I wanna ride the lowest lows with them,
Because when we fly high...
It's fucking glorious
Thanks for letting me get the shit out x
