Everyone Has a Dark Side ( Sam Potorff Fanfiction)

Chapter 12

Sam's POV:

I woke up feeling much calmer than I did before. I looked around the room to see Kian, Jc, Connor, and Ricky all asleep in chairs.

I tapped Ricky's arm weakly. "Ricky" I croaked out. His eyes snapped open and he sat upright. He looked around, confused and then saw me awake.

"Sam your awake! How are you feeling?" Ricky said as he woke the others up too. I thought about that question for awhile. And then answered quietly "Well honestly, I'm in a hospital wishing I was dead, so pretty much like shit."

Ricky sighed. "I know you hate being here. I'm sorry." I looked down and didn't say anything. Just then Kian said to me "Sam, why do you hate yourself so much?"

He looked up at me through tears in his eyes. I could feel tears brimming in my eyes as well. "Because I've hurt you by being broken. And everyone else seems to hate me as well." I said bitterly.

"Why do you keep saying that, Godammit? You are not the reason we are hurt! You're not a burden to us at all. We love you and will always always be here for you Sam. Why can't you just see that? You're so beautiful and you don't even realize it. You don't deserve any of the pain your in. Sam you are my best friend and honestly I don't know how I could live with myself if you killed yourself and I couldn't do anything about it. Please just understand that you mean so so much to all of us. Please" Kian said, tears streaming down both of our faces.

"I guess I just feel like the world would be better of without me." I said in a whisper. Connor sat next to me in my hospital bed and looked straight into my eyes as he said "I promise you, no one would be better off without you. The world needs Sam Pottorff. I need Sam Pottorff."

I looked down at my bandaged arms which had old blood seeping through. I looked down at the tube that was coming out of my side and into my stomach.

Finally, I looked back up at my best friends who were sitting all around my hospital bed. "I'm sorry guys. I'm sorry I did this to myself. I'm sorry you had to experience this shit. I really wanna go home."

Jc smiled. "You get to go home soo-" his sentence was cut off by the click of a camera. We looked at the doorframe to see a teenage girl with a camera taking pictures of me. Oh shit.

"Hey what the fuck are you doing!" Jc yelled. The girl gasped and sprinted down the hallway. Jc got up and slammed the door. "Some people are so rude." He said angrily.

I felt my phone buzzing I'm my pocket. I looked at it to see that my twitter was going crazy. I opened twitter to see what was going on. Oh my god. I dropped my phone and covered my mouth.

"Sam? Sam, what's wrong?" Connor asked, grabbing my phone. "Oh crap. That girl posted the picture of Sam in the hospital. It's gone viral."

Connor's POV:

We all looked over at Sam who was starting to freak out. He started breathing really heavily and started crying. "Oh god he's having a panic attack." Kian said, attempting to calm Sam down.

I went over to him and wrapped him in a hug. "It's okay, it's okay, shhh Sam your gonna be okay." I said sadly. His heart moniter was going crazy.

A bunch of nurses came in and had to hold him down while they gave him a pill to help him calm down. After awhile, he calmed down and fell asleep.

Anger was raging through me. I pulled out my phone and opened twitter. 'Wow. I'm honestly disgusted with our fan base right now. That picture is a huge invasion of privacy. So to that person who took the picture: I hope your happy. Sam went into a major panic attack and now the whole world knows about it. You've crossed the line this time.' I tweeted.

I looked over at Sam. This should've never happened. Sometimes I wish that we weren't so popular on the internet. It comes with many sacrifices.

Hellooo! This chapter was kind of a filler chapter so sorry that it's short D: btw let me know if you guys want a sequel to this story, cuz if so then I might need an editor to help me out ya know. Well that's all for know!
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