why me?

chapter 9

I have been trying to avoid Tyler for sometime now and stop thinking about him and get the flashback of him shouting at me out of my mind,avoiding him has been somewhat possible,anytime I see him coming towards me I turn to the other direction and speed off,in classes I try to seat at the front very far from him and I always leave immediately the bell rings to avoid getting in contact with him,all this has been tough but its all worth it but I still couldn't get his voice out of my head, with the way he shouted at me and the way he looked at me, I couldn't stop remembering the resentment in his eyes.
I was walking towards my locker with my head hung low,trying to use my long auburn hair to hide my face,it was working pretty well not until I bumped into a wall,I muttered curses under my breath,looking up to see the wall I bumped into, but my eyes widened at the sight in front of me and my legs threatened to bolt away,it was Tyler, I bumped into Tyler!!
"Sorry" I muttered while trying to  shuffle away,but his voice stopped me
"Claire"he said,his voice sounded rough and held a sense of guilt
" Claire,please turn around "
My brain screamed no, my body said maybe but my heart screamed yes,and like always I followed my heart and slowly turned around with my head hanging low
"Claire look at me"
I reluctantly looked at him, and looked into his eyes,they held so many emotions but mostly regret
"I know you have been avoiding me after what happened, Claire am sorry I didn't mean to talk to you that way. He hurt queen and we got into a fight and I didn't want you to see me in that state,am sorry Claire" he said while looking at me in the eyes,he looked so regretful and like he was in pain,he had this eye bags like he didn't sleep last night,I just wanted to hug him but I couldn't,I just couldn't..
"Its fine,I get it" I said but my voice betrayed me saying its not fine,I looked down at my shoes noticing some dirt stains that where lying around,trying to using as a distraction but it wasn't working,since all my brain can think of and process is him,all him,all Tyler, I hate myself most times for this, but I can't stop loving him can I?, I felt this sharp pain bolt through me so fast but it hurts so much,so much,that I want it all to end..his voice brought me back to my sad reality again
"Am going to make up for it,I promise"
"Umm ohk"I said trying to hide my emotions,not letting my voice betray me this time
"Coming for the party on Friday?" He said trying to lighten up the mood
"Yh,Queen invited me"
"Oh great"
The school bell rang signifying the start of lectures, signifying he had to leave.
"See you around Claire,sorry again,am going to make it  up to you,I promise" with that he left,not turning back once. I left for my classes too,with my brain fuzzy,I hope that I would be able to learn today,cause with all the distractions am facing am not sure how am going to do this semester's exam,with that thought in my head I left for my classes, so that I wouldn't get too late...

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I tried unlocking the door with my key but turns out the door was already opened,my heart started beating faster,did someone break into the house? Oh no,what am I going to do now. I slowly opened the door,trying to be as quiet as possible,I tried looking for a weapon, I found an old bat by the door side,I took it and held it close to myself with  a tight grip, my heart beating faster,I heard some noise in the kitchen,it got me a little bit infuriated,so the asshole came to steal my food,as I got closer to the kitchen I could smell something delicious cooking on fire,a robber wouldn't come to cook for me right? I stepped further and that's when it dawned on me that it was Mum and not a robber,and  by the way only mum's good smells that nice...
"Mum!!!" I screamed while running towards her
"My babygirl, I missed you,how are you?" She said with so much excitement in between laughs
"Am fine mum,I missed you so much,how are you?"
"Am fine love,school?"
When she mentioned school I wish I could tell her everything but she already has so much on her mind,so I decided not to, maybe some other time..
"School has been fine mum,ur trip?"
"It was fine,go freshen up already"
I hugged her one more time before going to freshen up,my mum was a nurse,so she had to travel frequently but she always had time for me,and yh she's suppose to be rich and all wealthy but my grandma is suffering from blood cancer and all or most of her money goes on medical bills,my grandma is really nice and sweet,I love her she makes the best cookies and puddings, it hurts that she can't do that any more and she's always tired and weak,I go to visit her too and I usually come back devastated,heartbroken and  sad,she always say its going to be better but the sad truth is that she's going to be gone sooner that later and it hurts so much.

I head upstairs and took a hot bath while listening to my playlist,and thinking about how far my life has come,it was a really long bath,I was done and came downstairs,dinner was served already and mum was waiting for me,I sat on the opposite side,mum served dinner,it was lasagne and chicken with some cookies..
"So Mum tell me about work" I enjoyed listening to her work tales and trust me it is going to be a long dinner..

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