Rants

In response (big rant part two)

Before this gets put down please help me analysis this because I'm confused of what she send. Please and thank.

I’m so sorry I made you feel that way, and it wasn’t my intention to ignore you in anyway, but I wasn’t on hangouts at all and I was offline the whole time, but I did see the notifications of you texting I didn’t say anything cause my mom is breathing down my shoulder cause my grandmas house is very small and she’s been a lot more nosy, but I was also having a hard time cause I got told we aren’t going to have a grave for my uncle because there cremating him, cremating! Not even burying him, there going to spread his ashes and I won’t be there to see the last remains of him go, I know you might ignore me or think maybe I want pity but I don’t, I understand that I’m probably the worst friend someone could ask for but I’m really trying, I’m trying to be a good friend but it’s hard now when you have Depression and no one believes that you do, my family thinks I shouldn’t have depression cause I’m “spoiled” and I’m not, I’m thankful for every single thing but they don’t listen to me when I tell them I was bullied as a young girl, they thought I was lying and as I grew up I realized no one was going to give a single f*ck about me so I grew depressed, but I know no one will care about that ether, but I’m not trying to gain any pity from this so I understand that I wasn’t there all the time but at least I’m trying, I’m trying so hard to be a good friend, but if you don’t want to be my friend I understand, most people don’t anyway, but you have to understand I can’t be on every single day to text and just because it says I’m online doesn’t mean it’s true my phone glitches a lot when there isn’t internet, again I’m sorry I made you feel like sh*t and I understand if you want to ignore this, so I won’t bother you anymore…I’m always bothering someone with my existence anyway….

I dont know what to say. Like I said I dont want to end the friendship but fix it. I need help in doing so. Please.