i'm sorry i could never really
love myself
i'm trying so hard
almost too hard
but my epiphany
a sudden form of knowledge
is only that i'm simply
not as good as everyone else
they aren't sick in the brain
they don't love the same gender too
they make straight A's
they're the coaches favorite kid
they're what everyone wants
they're fucking manipulative
they're toxic
they bodyshame
they're racist
but i'm still compared to them, like they're
a goddess. AND WHY?
why is it like this
why do they get the good glorification
but i'm seen as a devil child
"don't dress like that, you look like a
h o o k e r"
those words echo in my brain when i try
to wear anything but sweatpants
and my usual t shirt
why do i feel pressured to be
someone i'm not?
i can't ever love myself
i'm sorry seokjin
i'm sorry namjoon
i'm sorry mom
i'm sorry therapist
i'm sorry friends
i'm sorry. it hurts too much to
love something that
simply
isn't worth loving.
YOU ARE READING
honey sights
Poetrytrigger warning: mature content. be wary. may trigger anxiety and other mental conditions.