Bitch For Her

Twenty Three

Lisa's POV

"Lisa! How are you?!" Bambam asked me on the phone

"I'm going to your place" I said not bothering to answer him

"Oh, okay, be careful Imma wait for you" he said, noticing my voice cracking

"See you" I hang up the call standing on the side waving for some taxi

"Hongdae, third street please" the driver nod as I plug in the seat belt

Street lights are into every corner, the window shields in front are beginning to collect droplets of water,

Even the sky is crying for me

Totally moved by my emotions, I didn't feel the need of wiping my tears, its useless

"Saying goodbye is death by a thousand cuts, flashbacks making me up

"Getting drunk but its not enough cause the morning comes and your not my baby"

Even the radio's jam, were broken

"Cause I can't pretend its okay when its not

"Death by a thousand cuts"

Couldn't I be okay if I said I love her?

Couldn't I be scared because I fall for the wrong person?

Could I be brave enough to ignore my feelings?

I guess I can't

"Cold wind before evening is a sign of letting go" I mumbled, maybe Rosé is right

I arrived at Bambam's apartment, he even waited for me outside

"Are you okay Lis?" He hugged me and so I did

"Yep, just need some warm choco" He chuckles, he immediately open the door going in first

"Come in, I'll get you the best hot choco in town" he pushed me down on his couch, opening the t.v

"Famous model Jennie Kim and her former boyfriend Kim Hanbin were spotted kissing on a park, as the dispatcher says the two were officially getting back together"

Again, it hurts even hearing their names in a sentence

"Netizens even shares that the lovely couple Jennie Kim and Lisa Manoban were over as everyone was celebrating for the old couple being together again" The news anchor finally dropped the bomb

I was gonna change the channel when Bambam pulled the wire

"The news was boring, don't watch it" he lend me the mug while he sat beside me

"So.. Aren't you gonna say.. Something?" He sip on his own mug

"I love her Bam, I just realized it later when I saw them" He gasped, putting his mug on the coffee table

"Yahh you've been in a relationship with her for about months and you just realized it now?!" He scoffs

I forgot to tell him

"We're not in a relationship, its a whole media play Bam, she offer me a job and I also need money that day" he gasped again

"And I hate it to admit that I love her" he fix his posture

"But.. Did you confess already?" He asked

"No, and I never will" I stare at my drink, looking to the evaporating smoke

"And what are you gonna do with that feelings?"

"Let it fade" he looked at me unbelievable

"I'm gonna quit from that job, besides, I'm moving back to Thailand after I graduate" I sip at my drink

"When? I think its too early Lisa, your Mom surely understand if you extend your stay here"

"I already planned everything Bam, I'm gonna leave after the graduation" I looked at him very sorry

"Please don't tell it to everyone, even Jisoo and Rosé, I'm sure they gonna follow me there" I chuckle

"Well, I can't stop you now, but if I were you, I'm gonna confess my feelings to her, we never know if she loves you too" he patted my shoulder, I shrugs

"She doesn't love me, and I know that she never do" I drank half of my drink

"Don't say that, you didn't even heard her saying that she doesn't like you" he said that as a matter of fact

"As you say so" I said bringing up my mug to his,

"Cheers!" He said toasting our mug

"Cheers" We drank all of it as it leaves some choco beard, we laughed at our own silliness

I'm glad even for a minute I forgot my feelings from her

From Jennie

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