My Thoughts

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I just want to cry 

I want to curl in a ball and never move 

I want to lay there with my head in my hands and actually deal with my emotions

I'm so stressed I'm crying randomly 

I'm so overwhelmed by work emotions everything 

Covid-19 is slowly killing me without ever infecting me

Why is it so hard to actually be myself anymore

To do the things that I want to do

To live life the way I want to live it

I can't focus anymore 

I can't breathe anymore

I can't think anymore

I just....

I think I just give up

I just....

I think I wish I was stronger 

Today's a really hard day...

I just....

I'm just done...

Sorry for the depressing update my moods have been all over the place here recently and alot of times I write it out and never publish them but this time I feel the need to publish it no matter how depressing it is. I won't give up I have too much around me that's good. I'm just unsure how to handle alot of things around me right now. Things that are hard to explain, some things I just can't talk about, some things are too hard to talk about, some things I just need to keep to myself instead of burdening others.