『Three's A Charm』『OHSHC』*EDITING*

♡19: A Blinding Love

A Blinding Love

unedited

Listen to the song: Relates so much!

Tuesday, I didn't even bother going to the Host Club. After a long miserable day at school, I just wanted to head home. By Wednesday, I got up the courage to actually go to the Host Club, even though I knew I'd just go to my usual spot and listen to my music again. I started to wonder what my life would have been like had the twins never came into it. I probably wouldn't have come back to Japan after Grandpa's death, and would most likely be living with my aunt until I graduated high school.

What a boring life it would have been without them around. And just a week away from them was enough to make me this emotionless. Nothing enthused me; I was just a hollow figure. It wasn't healthy, but maybe love was never meant to be healthy. Fast heart beats, cold feet, sweaty palms, butterflies in my stomach, and a red complexion. All of which didn't sound too healthy to me.

"Chelsea," I heard Haruhi say, as I turned to look behind me.

"Hi Haruhi," I said with my monotone voice.

"Are you feeling okay?" I hadn't noticed, but I was as pale as a blank piece of paper, and my eyes had dark circles under them. Sleep hadn't exactly been a luxury lately.

"I'm just tired," I replied.

"Perhaps you should head home," she said.

"I guess you're right." I said, lifting myself off the window still, and started to walk away.

"Maybe you should stay home tomorrow Chelsea. Take a break from school and try to relax." she noted.

"I'll think about it." I called back to her right before I retreated out the door.

What would a day away from school help? A day away from school would only make me more bored with nothing to do around the house. Sleeping in did sound very nice though, so I decided. Why not?

I slept in until noon on Thursday. I guess I was more deprived from sleep than I had originally assumed. I took a long bath to release some of the built up tension in my body and made myself waffles for breakfast. I then flopped down on the couch and read Bleach manga until my eyes were sore. Three hours had passed since I woke up, and now I was just lying there, still on the couch, making patterns with my eyes on the ceiling.

I had to admit, Haruhi's advice was actually working. I expected things to be worse, but not having the stress of school for a day, actually relieved some of the numbness that had taken over my body. I glanced over at my cell phone, trying with all my might to resist picking it up, but in the end, was too weak. Flipping it open, I hadn't missed a single call. Kaoru promised he'd make Hikaru call. I sighed roughly and threw my cell phone across the room. Rolling over on my side I curled up in a ball, and waited for something else to come to my mind.

It was the most calm before the storm as the old saying goes, and that was exactly how it happened. As soon as things were looking up, they only got worse, as a storm rolled into the area. I hadn't had to face a storm by myself for quite some time. Anytime a storm was in the forecast, the twins either came over or I went over to their house. It was seven o'clock now, and I heard the sound of thunder rumbling above me. I raced into my room to get my headphones and a flashlight, along with my big, cozy blanket, and then went back into the living room and curled up on the couch. I was just about to put my headphones on when... my cell phone started to ring.

I leaped up from the couch so fast, I nearly suffered from a head rush. Where was that thing?! Where did I throw it?! I followed the noise frantically, praying it'd just keep ringing. It was on the floor next to the window. As I went to pick it up, lightning stuck and I froze in place. Swiping the phone, I hurried back to the couch while answering it.