RAINBOW VODKA

dear venus

fools fall face first on the deck at the sound of your name
they come ripping through the star system's skin like meteors

parched of the bittersweetness of bona fide appreciation,
the drops you so carelessly let curious minds drink from at first encounters

and it is a ridiculous thing to hold it against someone as almighty as you,
because you are boundless and infinite and i want to ask

of a picture that's been painted since you left your holy altar,
bearing nothing but the madness of forlorn and placid hearts alike —

have you ever visited me once in all of my existence?
swept through the homes of my bones as did god in exodus?
restrained me to humanly pillars of regret, lust, and delirium?

have you ever called upon my name to appoint me on the frontlines?
to be speared across the heart like the memory of a lifeless woman, mother of four?
or to be drowned in fear against something i cannot nurture?

these are the things that make up my distorted portrait of you
and i know it is never in your nature to look twice,

you made it clear the day you left trails of redemption across my war-painted friends,
bled my cousins dry of a conflict-free state of mind,
and brought a bundle of joy in the form of stubby hands

we do not run purely by your kind of gasoline, no
you're beyond electrifying induced affairs and you intoxicate, so i want to ask

of a picture that's been painted since you returned to your holy altar, it seems,
bearing nothing but the madness of everyone else's hearts but mine —

will you embrace me, too?

3/08/20, 6:59am
— i'm still on an indefinite hiatus here but i just wanted to share this piece. hope you're all doing well, i love you.