TW: Mentions of blood, general drunk behavior, trauma, and domestic abuse
I remember when you crawled into the backseat of the car
While Andi was still driving, you just undid your seatbelt and got in the back
Right next to me,
You said "baby girl
No one understands me
Except you"
And what was an 9-year old supposed to say to that?
You started to sing me lullabies
So out of your usual behavior
I wanted to get away from you
I don't want to be near you
Don't call me "baby girl"
Don't sing me lullabies
Your method of coping
Just gives me trauma
Because I am not a toddler anymore,
We don't need to go back to the way things used to be.
I remember when you fell down the stairs
Despite me warning you beforehand
Because I found you
Passed out under my brother's bed
And I helped you upright
And I stayed next to you even though I didn't really want to,
And after the fact, with blood dripping down your head and onto my nightgown you said:
"Baby girl
Stay here with me"
And you mumbled under your breath
Sang a lullaby to me
I didn't want to hear or see...
Don't call me baby girl
It brings up memories
Don't apologize for your "little mistakes"
Because that just brings me back,
I was your closest confidant
And also your little baby because
You tried to make things go back to the way they were before...
No more.
Don't call me baby girl
Don't call me baby girl
If I hear your voice not calling me by my name
I might just go insane
Don't call me baby girl
Don't call me baby girl
I remember you used to tell me
Things children don't usually hear
About how your brother was slammed into the wall
While you cowered in fear
I'll never forgive him
For what he did to you
I thought it was normal back then
But I'm better
And I know now.
You made stuff up to convict my father
I heard and learned stuff I shouldn't have
Even though you sat me down on the couch and apologized to me
Sent my brother off to therapy that he didn't need
Don't call me baby girl
Don't call me baby girl
Don't call me baby girl
Don't apologize to me
ESTÁS LEYENDO
My Personal Songbook (PT 1)
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