(KATHERINE HOWARD'S POINT OF VIEW)
"Well, since we all settled down.." We all turned to Jane. It was an hour or two after all our introductions, and we didn't have any spare clothes. We only had the dresses we wore before we died. "I think we should go to the store and buy some clothes." Jane concluded. She made it sound like the most exciting thing ever. "Does anyone wanna come with?" Jane asked, hopeful. Literally no one spoke up. You should go with her, be useful for once. Despite that little voice in the back of my mind, I didn't say anything. Jane sighed, "I'll just go alone." She said. Damnit, Katherine! You screwed up yet again! I felt awful. I felt embarrassed. I curled up in a ball in shame. It felt like all the queens were staring at me with disgust. I snapped back into reality when someone tapped my shoulder. "Hey, are you okay, Kat?" I blushed when I saw Anna standing infront of me. "Uh- Y-yeah! I'm fine!" I said, stuttering. Fuuuuuuck- Kat you idiot!
Anna tilted her head. "Are you sure? You look-" "I'm fine, Anna!" I interrupted. Oh shit.. I felt even more embarrassed. I just cut off the prettiest girl I've ever seen! She probably hates me now! Anna looked surprised. "Uh..okay." She said in almost a whisper, then walked off. I felt like sobbing, I messed up twice today! I slowly walked up to my room and sobbed. I felt so awful. Maybe I was being too dramatic..I should stop..but I couldn't. I couldn't stop crying, even if my life depended on it. It seemed impossible.
After a few minutes, I calmed down, and now was just scratching at my neck. Maybe I was being too dramatic..she's just a girl..it's just a girl. But why did it hurt so badly? I rolled off of my bed and onto the floor, making a loud 'thud'. I just stared at the ceiling, hearing footsteps coming up the stairs and stopping at the door. "Kat? Are you okay?" Anne asked from outside my room. I was relived that it was Anne, but at the same time I was disappointed. "Yeah, I'm fine." I said, not taking my gaze away from the ceiling. "Are you sure?" I huffed. "Yes, Anne!" I shouted. "Okay.." Anne said. I could hear her walking away from my room, then back downstairs. Don't get me wrong, I felt bad again, but at the same time I just felt..numb? I must be selfish for thinking that..
Sorry this is so short! I didn't really have any ideas for this chapter, but I did want to update it lol.
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FanfictionKatherine Howard was used to men using and abusing her, even though it hurt everytime. The only thing she wanted was someone to love her for her, not her body. But it didn't help that she was trapped in the 21st century with 5 other women that marri...
