Stay With Me

Chapter 43

Hayley is played by Phoebe Tonkin ^.^

Song ATM Don't Speak by No Doubt

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As I sat down getting comfy after a long day, I looked up to see Hayley smirking. "What?" I asked smiling. "How's Cameron?" "Good" I quickly answer making sure my mind didn't fully go on earlier activities. Her eyes narrowed still watching me "Soo... are you two back together?"

I shook my head not looking down knowing how this convo was gonna go. "When the hell is that gonna happen?" she demanded and I shrugged "When everything... gets better. We're friends though" I reassured and she nodded not responding making me nervous.

"I just want to make sure he means what he says..." I whispered looking away. He seems to be better though. He doesn't seem to drink much- not including that one night... but, he's calm now. Everything that has happen in New York seems to be behind him.

Is it bad that I just wanted to sit back and see that everything was good before jumping in?

"And you agreed to be his personal assistant huh?" she asked. I nodded and she busted out laughing. "Oh yeah, he has you right in arms reach. You might as well give in now" she joked and I laughed shaking my head. "What makes you so sure?" "You love him" she stated and I nodded.

"Of course I do. Always will..." I stated looking down at my fingers. I would always love this guy, not matter what happens between us but, I needed to come first.

"I just don't want to... feel how I did again" I said looking up to see her nodding. "That's understandable" "I don't want him to think i'm messing with his feeling but, I don't want to feel that... hurt again. I know at the time it was hard for him and he's recovering now so i'm giving him the benefit of the doubt. I just don't want him to feel like i'm waiting for him to mess up eith-"

"You don't have to explain it to me, I understand but, does he?" she asked and I shook my head. "We haven't talked about the relationship really, not much since the day he came to my house" She froze looking at me confused. "What day?" she asked.

Shit. Never told her.

"Umm.. he came over and we talk- more like argued that morning. It was bad, thought everything would crumble once again. We yelled and screamed but, then he just said his real feelings and ... it just made sense kind of"

"That you are meant to be together..." she stated smiling and I shrugged trying to hide my smile. She sighed shaking her head "Can't believe you two have to go through all this to state the fucking obvious"

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Saturday Night

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I laughed leaning on Cam as Hayley and Josh argued on who would pay for their part of dinner. Once Josh said it was the mans duty to pay Hayley argued back saying a women should be able to treat her man out too. Cameron already warned me not to start the argument tonight so I just left it alone... this time. It was too entertaining watching them go at it.

I looked over to Cam as he grabbed my hand squeezing it "Seem to be feeling better" he whispered and I smiled nodding. Since the convo with Hayley, I have been a bit guilty about the way i've been with Cam. Did he understand that I wanted this to work just as much as him? Did he understand that all I need is some more time and reassurance before I fully jump back in?

That's all I needed and we could continue what we wanted to start here.

"Yeah" I whispered smiling and he nodded "Good... You know that you can always talk to me, about anything right?" he whispered and I bit my lip looking down. "I know... thank you" I whispered hoping he would leave the subject till I was ready to talk about it.