LETTING GO
"I got something to say, let's meet up. Now we sit silent facing each other. I keep thinking in my head should I say this or not, although I don't want to . . ."
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"Rudolf, how can I let you go . . ." I silently asked myself as I softly twirl my body in front of many audiences. Each of them clapping their hands as a sign of appreciating my performance.
When I finally wrapped up my performance, I bend my body towards the front. Nang tuluyang natapos ay dumiretso ako sa dressing room sabay tinawagan ang aking boyfriend.
"Hi, honey. Let' s meet up . . ." Nasabi ko narin sa wakas.
magprakt
"Oh, p-pwede mamaya nalang, 'Chel? Nagpa-praktis pa kasi kami, eh . . ."
"Okay, pupuntahan nalang kita sa building niyo." Agad kong nagpa-alam sakin manager na susundin ko muna si Rudolf bago tinahak and daan patungo sa building nila.
Pagkarating ko, lots of staff are greeting me happily and even helped me to reached Rudolf' s practice room. Nang makita ko na ay nagpasalamat ako sa kanila. Dahan-dahang umupo ako sa bench habang hinintay na bumukas ang pinto ng silid nila Rudolf.
I sighed deeply nang bumukas ito ng tuluyan at bumungad sakin ang anim membro ng INKJET kasama na do' n ang boyfriend ko. I noticed him getting startled when he saw me pero hindi ko 'yon pinansin at walang pasabi-sabing hinila ko ang kamay niya papaalis ng building.
"What do you think you' re doing, Rachel? Kita mo bang hindi pa kami tapos magpraktis ng mga kasama ko!?" He bursted out, pero patuloy ko parin siyang hinila hanggang marating namin ang parking lot.
The rain suddenly poured out from the dark sky kaya pareho kaming nababasa ni Rudolf. My perfect way to confessed my feelings. I looked at his eyes and there was pain behind it. An evidence that kinailangan ko na talaga siyang bitawan.
"Rudolf, I-I' m so sorry b-but. . . I really do need to let you go. Holding on to you will do no good to our relationship ngayon pa' t pareho tayong busy sa' tin mga career. Pareho lang din tayong masasaktan k-kaya I' ve decided to end this relationship of ours . . ." Nagsimulang tumulo ang luha sakin mga mata at 'di nagtagal, tuluyang napa-iyak nalang ako ng malakas.
I' m really so sorry, Rudolf. I' d been holding on to you for so long but now I must let you go. So that someday you could smile and that you could no longer struggle because of our different career paths. So that you could find another love that you really deserves you more . . .
— The End —
"Holding on to you will do you no good. I know, so I struggle to get you out. The times we had together, our dear memories. I let go, let go, let go. So you can smile someday . . ."
– (Letting Go, DAY6)
