Mirrors they never lie
Don't see myself inside
I looked into the river, peering at my reflection. A single tear fell from my face and dropped into the water.
Sigh.
It was no use. I could never do it.
Why can't I get it right ?
Again, I felt the salty water roll down my cheek, tracing its path to its eventual fall.
I don't know
Another sigh.
I was really useless. Nothing could change that, could it ?
You're always watching me fall
Tears were flooding my face now. I was a mess.
Sigh.
Shadows, they like my wall
I hadn't seen Tam come, but he was there. Without a word, he enveloped me in a hug.
"It'll be fine, Linh. You'll see. It'll turn out perfect in the end."
Why do I feel so small
I gazed up at the sky, and at the trees surrounding us. I feel minuscule amongst this perfect atmosphere.
I don't know
Another sigh.
So I walk into the dead of night
Tam had decided to come with me. After all, it was the middle of the night, and I needed a Shade. He also was my twin. We had a pretty close bond.
Where my monsters like to hide
I shivered. "This is like... that time. You know... when they took you."
Chaos feels so good inside
I was jumbled messed-up mix of emotions. I mean... I was happy to finally be finding out how to control my power. But I wasn't, because it would mean I'd need to go back to them.
Now I know
Sigh.
I lost, I lost
Shiver. I was really hopeless, wasn't I ?
I lost control again
Oh, yay. I just found out that when I'm nervous I have a tendency to soak people.
Always do the same and I'm to blame
Tam glared but reassured me. "You'll be fine. It's not your fault."
"It is."
I lost control again
"If this continues, I might as well put on my bathing suit," Tam joked.
I don't, I don't
I don't know who I am
Steely resolve fired me on. "They stopped me from being who I am."
Always do the same and I'm to blame
"They let me get banished for the flooding of Atlantis."
I lost control again
"Well, I'm not letting them get away with it."
Tired of being afraid
I didn't have experience. The only time I had ever revolted was the flooding of Atlantis.
But lately, I lost my faith
This wasn't going to work. There was no chance.
What is love without pain
That was a doubt, indeed.
It ain't home
Bitter laugh.
You're watching me but I'm below
Don't catch me, Neverseen.
When I get caught I hope
But I wouldn't get caught.
It's the kind of blackout that will
Take me home
The home I'd always wanted.
So I walk into the dead of night
Where my monsters like to hide
Chaos feels so good inside
Oh yes it did. It felt good to see others suffer.
Now I know
I lost, I lost
I lost control again
No, Linh. You can't think that way.
Always do the same and I'm to blame
I lost control again
I don't, I don't
I don't know who I am
I am Linh Song. Hydrokinetic. Twin. Banished. Ambi Hemisphere.
Always do the same and I'm to blame
I lost control again
I know that I'm a mess
My hair was undone, I had bags under my eyes, my tunic was ripped.
But I ain't tryna be the best
But I would do whatever it took to convince them to help.
So whatever's coming next
Start better pray-ay-ay-ing
Tam squeezed my hand. "You can do this."
I lost, I lost
I lost control again
Always do the same and I'm to blame
I lost control again
I don't, I don't
I don't know who I am
Always do the same and I'm to blame
I lost control again
"Oops."
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Wow, this was deep.
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