Undestined (ON-HOLD)

CHAPTER 3

Drown

After our dinner, Kuya and I decided to go home to the mansion. Magkahiwalay kami ng sasakyan pauwi. He's driving his Aston Martin while Kuya Nero's with me inside our SUV.

As much as I want to drive my own car since I'm on my legal age now and take driving lessons, Daddy won't allow me. He said that we can afford to pay our drivers for doing their job. I hate it whenever I think about that. Iba pa rin syempre kung mayroon akong sariling sasakyan. Hindi naman habang buhay ay aasa ako sa aming driver na si Kuya Nero.

Noong nasa Florida ako, I envy those other teenagers like me with their own luxurious cars that they use wherever they go. I'm already 20 for God's sake! But now that I'm home, I think I can convince  Daddy. I grinned at that thought.

Nang matanaw ko na ang aming subdivision, lots of memories came into me. I suddenly remembered all those times I spent with the people I loved and trusted. I can't stop reminiscing all those memories. Aside from my family, I had tons of my so-called friends who also live here and betrayed me for their own good.

I wonder what happened to them. In two years, I lost my contact with them aside from my family. Mommy said that they tried to reach out for me but I refused to talk to them. Inisip ko na baka may masabi akong masasakit na salita na hindi ko na mababawi pa at pagsisihan ko sa bandang huli.

Noong mga panahong iyon, sinarado ko ang isip ko. I almost lost my mind completely. I can't believe that those sort of things happened in my life. I mean, we were all okay. We were happy. But suddenly, it was all gone. I realized that it's just a phase.

I always hear people saying that, "ang panandaliang saya, matinding sakit at lungkot ang kapalit," then I realized that it's part of life. It's part of living in this cruel world.

It's not just about being happy all the time, because sadness and pain will come after. Trust will be broken. People come and people go. That's life. You just have to learn how to guard your heart and choose people whom you can trust.

There goes my mind overthinking again and again. Mariin kong ipinikit ang mga mata ko. I just can't stop myself from thinking too much which is not good for me.

I closed my eyes for awhile and look outside the window after. Napangiti ako nang makita kong papasok na kami sa gate ng mansion. I missed this.

This is home. Kahit naman gusto ko nang tumira sa Florida, hindi pa rin maaalis sa akin na isiping ito ang tahanan ko. This is where I belong. My family. Eventhough, we're not the perfect one, we all have our own flaws and imperfections. This is my home.

I deeply sighed. Naramdaman ko na lang na huminto na ang sasakyan. Umikot si Kuya Nero upang pagbuksan ako ng pinto. "Welcome home po ulit, Ma'am," ngiti niya. Nagpasalamat naman ako.

Naunang dumating si Kuya. Pagkalabas niya ng kotse ay lumapit siya sa akin at inakbayan ako. "You're finally home. For good," napangiti ako sa sinabi ni Kuya.

"I know, it feels good pala. Kahit na gusto ko kayong awayin dahil nainis ako nang pilit ninyo akong pinapauwi ni Daddy," I chuckled. Natawa naman siya dahil totoo iyon.

Sabay kaming pumasok sa loob ng bahay at nagulat ako dahil nandoon silang lahat. The maids, Manang Olivia, ang mayordoma ng mansyon at nag-alaga sa amin ni Kuya Erres noong bata pa kami, at sa huli ay sina Mommy at Daddy. I thought bukas pa sila uuwi. Such a scam!