The cot felt soft, more than usual almost like clouds the first time Ellis got some good rest, he was thankful that insomnia didn't attack him that night
But that feeling didn't last long
As he felt his arm being nudged by a shoe
He groaned curling into himself not wanting to wake up
"Wake up."
As nick kicked ellis to his back
Ellis opened his eyes to stare at the ceiling instead he saw a gun being pointed at him
This time he didn't flinch or felt scared
And to his surprise he even smiled a little bit
Dying felt like the best option closing his eyes earning a raised brow from the older man
All of a sudden the door opened
"Nick! Jesus christ leave
Ellis alone!!"
As Rochelle pulled nick back
"Lighten up sweet ass
the stupid safety lock
is on"
Ellis turned around trying to go back into slumber
"Oh no your getting up"
As nick kicked him over to his back once again
Ellis groaned as his covers were pulled from him, when he realized that he wasn't wearing his sweater he immediately sat up pulling it over his body
He stared at nick giving him a death glare as he stood up and began to walk to the bathroom
"You flip me off
now you don't do shit?"
Not having the strength to argue back he just slammed the bathroom door behind him
Turning on the bath water to make others think he was washing his face
When really he needed it to block the others from hearing his sobs
Sitting down on the toilet covering his eyes with his hands
This life was really shitty
It wasn't even- he was just woken up from his sleep sure he may have finally gotten a good nights rest but you gotta wake up
So why was he making such a big deal over that?
I guess it was because he just was getting worse and worse each day dying a little each day wanting to just end it a little, maybe because the people weren't so nice except Rochelle
No one cares about his rest no one cares that he barely sleeps no one cares enough to....
Sighing heavily as the tears became too much to wipe away on his own
Grabbing some tissue and his wiping across his eyes roughly
"Stop crying your fine"
As ellis wiped away the tears and sniffled as he tried to stand
But his body wouldn't corporate and so was his tear ducts
He cursed at himself for having emotions
Suddenly
He hated crying he hated feeling this way he hated being this way
He was supposed to be happy Supposed to be strong supposed to be a protector supposed to be a man and not this mess
If only he and nick hadn't went out that day
Oh if only that didn't happen
Just the thought made him sob even more as he gripped his hair making his cap fall to the floor
I'm being pathetic
a break down over nothing.
As he finally stood up forcefully this time
Pushing down any feelings that was flowing out
He was a man, hes not allowed to cry nor feel this way, only women can do that the man is supposed to be stronger and the protector not the other way around... right?
Your fine
Your fine
Your fine
Your fine
As he began to splash his face to bring the redness down in attempt to make it look like he didn't cry
Your fine
Your fine
Your fine
Your fine
As he began to turn the bath water off and wash his hands
Your fine
Your fine
Your fine
Your-
He stared at the mess he was making him grow even more insecure
Gripping his hair almost crying at the sight of himself
"Your.... fine.."
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Taken Innocence(l4d2)
Fanfictionn o s h i p s(l4d2) ellis was always the happy adult child, always talking about his imaginary friend Keith and crazy stories and everyone thinks Keith is an actual person ellis loved carnivals and playing games and when he found a board game he'd...
