Heavy Sweetness Ash-Like Frost

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Chapter 22: Love and Hate Changes in an Instant

Night sat at the bed edge. He lowered his head and was applying medicine at my wrist. Suddenly, he held my arm and pulled up my sleeve all the way to the top. My whole arm was completely exposed to his gaze. I was shocked and wanted to pull down the sleeve but he forcefully held on and I could not move.

To be grabbed so forcefully by him, my arm started to hurt even more and I took in a deep breath, "Ah----"

I never knew Night had a violent side and I could not helped being frightened into a daze. But, he did not lift up his head, his eyes fixated on the burns I had suffered from the samadhi flames. His brows deepened, the edge of his mouth tightened, and he did not apply the medicine as gently as before. It was as if he was taking revenge and using the medicinal cream to roughly abrade the burns. The pain caused tears to well up in my eyes but I did not dare to make a single sound.

After he roughly finished applying the medicine, his expression seemed to become worse. He opened his mouth a few times as if he wanted to say something, but he was not able to. Finally, he turned his head and walked off.

When I realised this, I quickly stretched out my hand and grabbed his sleeve, "Night..." I called him back but I did not know how to continue. I already did not know what I wanted to say when I pulled him back.

He did not turn his head back at all. With his back rim-rod straight and his head unturned, he coldly said, "Do not speak. Do not say anything to me." In half a moment, he lightly let out a breath, so light it was like an immediately passing cloud, "Some things... it is better not to know. The clearer it becomes, the more it hurts."

He lowered his gaze to my grip on his sleeve. He appeared to hesitate but he finally said in a calm tone, "Let go of me."

I did not know what was this feeling in my heart, but I complied and let go of his sleeve. A long time passed but he did not go. Silently, I turned back into my room. With just two steps, I heard a light wind behind me, Night had turned around to hug me, "Jin Er..."

I froze as I heard the loud beating from his chest, "Jin Er, can you not let me watch your back again? I am waiting for you to turn back, I have always been waiting for you to turn back. Do you know this? I convinced myself that if I spoil you, let you do whatever you want, if I just lived each day having one eye close and deceiving myself, if all these could make you happy, make you become healthy again, you will one day see all the good in me, see my feelings for you. But, why... why do you never turn back? Why are you willing to let him incinerate you with the samadhi flames but not willing to seek my embrace?"

He looked at me - his gaze had no light in it at all as if he lived in an abyss of darkness, "Till this day, do you still love him?"

I frantically pushed him away, "What are you saying? Love? I have never loved him. I hate him, I hate him!" I suddenly felt a wintry coldness throughout my body, a coldness born from my bones, I hugged my arms tightly to give myself some warmth, "I have only been struck by a voodoo spell. Why don't you understand this?"

"Voodoo spell? Voodoo spell... I have also been struck by your voodoo spell, why don't you release me?" He lowered his head with a resigned smile, "You can let me go, but I can never let you go..."

I watched as the cloth overlaying the window split open then fell back again, and then splitting open again with the wind, just like how my heart felt so empty it was as if someone had taken it out.

I did not understand anything......

After escaping from the fire the previous time, for a very long time, I did not go again to the Demon Realms. I was afraid of seeing him and also afraid of him seeing me. I was also always avoiding Night, I could not bear to see him, and also could not bear him seeing me.